SCATTERBRAIN*d - Sugar Crash Halo

I stitched my smile with safety pins, You said it’s cute, I call it sin. My moods swing like a wrecking ball, Candy-coated crash before the fall. My bloodstream hums a lullaby, Of lithium dreams and static sky. I taste the rain in pill-shaped hues, Every color bleeds right through. There’s glitter in the medicine, And ghosts beneath my skin. I’m chemically imbalanced, a halo cracked in two, Angel on the outside, acid underneath the blue. I’m dizzy from the dosage, I’m holy when I’m numb, Screaming through the sweetness, I forget what I’ve become. The clocks melt slow in my head, Every hour something’s dead. Velvet tongue, electric ache, Swallow dreams I didn’t make. Static kisses, dopamine, Serotonin guillotine. Doctor says I’m “doing well,” Heaven’s just a padded cell. There’s glitter in the medicine, And ghosts beneath my skin. I’m chemically imbalanced, a halo cracked in two, Angel on the outside, acid underneath the blue. I’m dizzy from the dosage, I’m holy when I’m numb, Screaming through the sweetness, I forget what I’ve become. I pray to Prozac deities, My faith comes in prescriptions. I cut my prayers in half again, And chase them with contradictions. I’m chemically imbalanced, a halo cracked in two, Angel on the outside, acid underneath the blue. I’m dizzy from the dosage, I’m holy when I’m numb, Screaming through the sweetness, I forget what I’ve become. So kiss me in the breakdown, With your sugar crash halo. We’ll dance on dopamine graves, Till the static swallows us whole.