Silence Has A Shape

[Verse 1] I’ve been told many things Some loud, some behind my back If I had to choose one phrase It’s the one they repeat the most “You didn’t do anything wrong.” They say it like a closed door I still don’t know what it means But it never felt kind [Verse 2] I was a child when they named me Something I couldn’t explain They asked me what it was I didn’t even know myself If they didn’t ask They stepped away Silence has a shape And I learned it early [Pre-Chorus] I kept watching the room Trying to see where I fit Too different to belong Too aware to disappear [Chorus] How do I cope? I just cope Whether I can or not I just do No answers, no pause No place to fall apart I just cope I just do [Verse 3] At twenty-one they gave me a second name Like it finally explained the past I’d been living with it for years Just without permission So I spent my youth wondering Why nothing ever felt like home Not with the normal Not with the special [Pre-Chorus] Always standing in between Categories that don’t breathe Trying to translate myself In a language no one taught me [Chorus] How do I cope? I just cope Doesn’t matter if I can Or if I break I wake up, I move on I carry what I have to I just cope I just do [Bridge] They say I didn’t do anything wrong But something was always missing It was understanding It was time It was someone Who stayed long enough To see me Instead of the label they gave me Instead of the shell I carry [Chorus – Reprise] How do I cope? I just cope It’s not strength It’s survival I didn’t choose this road I just walked it anyway I just cope I just do [Outro] I just try to exist