Augury (Remastered)

Lyrics by thacap Last year, my dad died. During that process, I learned a lot about myself and my family through stories that filled in a lot of blanks during my life. Ive managed to make good of my life but never really had much support from my family. Instead, I was looked on as a resource to uplift others; a resource. This song is a representation of me processing the feelings in hindsight. [Mathrock Intro][Screamed Vocals] [Guitar riff] YOUR LAST BREATH WASTED ON PROVING ME RIGHT All of these years now you surrender to the light IT WAS ME YOU IGNORED [Verse 1] Rip up the will, throw it back in your casket Your final words were wrapped in plastic Family dysfunction, pure gymnastics Backflips through trauma, it's all so drastic [Pre-Chorus: ] You showed your cards when death came knocking Left me with scars and memories shocking The hospital bed couldn't hide your true colors The morphine drip revealed what you'd become [Chorus:] You made me see what you'd become Then took the coward's way and ran Left me here to pick up pieces Of a life you never planned The cancer spread just like your hatred Through every vein, through every word Now I'm stuck with your belongings But the damage was what I inherited [Post-Chorus: ] Prescription pills won't fix this feeling Your deathbed lies weren't that appealing Sign here, sign there, bureaucratic healing While my childhood memories keep on reeling [RNB Verse 2] They say forgiveness sets you free But your grave just sets me straight Everything you never were Everything you chose to take The flowers on your headstone Are faker than your love I'm selling all your medals They're worth less than your blood [Breakdown: ] [Screamed Vocals] Daddy's little disappointment turned into everything you hate Surviving all your bullshit made me stronger than your slate I'll take your name off every document, I'll scratch it from my plate Your legacy of violence ends here at heaven's gate [Refrain: ] You made me see (You made me see) What you'd become (What you'd become) Then left me here (Then left me here) With all you've done (With all you've done) [Chorus: ] You made me see what you'd become Then took the coward's way and ran Left me here to pick up pieces Of a life you never planned The cancer spread just like your hatred Through every vein, through every word Now I'm stuck with your belongings But the damage was what I inherited [Outro: ] I'll torch your photos one by one Until your face becomes undone The therapist says I should run From memories of what you've done But I'll just dance upon your grave And celebrate the mess you made 'Cause in the end you taught me this: How not to be a father's fist