Alone

[Intro] (soft, almost whispered over the beat) Crowded rooms… empty seats in my head… Smile on, lights on… still dead… [Verse 1 – rapid-fire aggressive] Yeah, I’m surrounded by bodies but the silence is loud Laughin’ with the circle while I’m drownin’ in the crowd They say “you good?” I say “yeah” with a grin that don’t reach Got a bunch of great friends and a mind that won’t preach Every text is a surface, every hang is a show They see the surface-level, can't dig to the low I been battlin’ demons since a kid in the dark Smilin’ through the panic while it carve up my heart Self-doubt got a megaphone, confidence on mute Every win feels temporary, every loss feels absolute I got people who love me, still feel like a ghost Walkin’ through my own life like I’m not even close Depression don’t knock, it just move in and stay Rearrange the furniture and make the light go away I keep it locked behind teeth like a practiced façade Sufferin’ in silence like it’s part of the job [Chorus – groovy, melodic, heavier delivery] I’m alone… even when they surround me Alone… in a room full of sound, see They talk but they don’t hear the war in my chest I’m alone… wearin’ the smile that I wear best Alone… yeah I’m alone… [Verse 2 – rapid-fire, more intense] Mirror talkin’ reckless, tellin’ me I’m not enough Every good day got a shadow that be callin’ my bluff I overthink the laughter, dissect every look Wonder if they stayin’ ‘cause they care or ‘cause they’re stuck Got a mind that invents reasons to feel like a burden Push people away then regret when they hurtin’ I want the help but the words get stuck in my throat Pride and the pain got a permanent chokehold Nights stretch forever when the thoughts start to race Replay every failure like it’s stuck on a loop face Friends in my contacts but I can’t hit send ‘Cause openin’ up feels like losin’ again This ain’t dramatic, this is daily, this is real Carryin’ a weight that don’t care how I feel I been fightin’ this war with no army, no rest Just a heart that’s exhausted and a mind that won’t quit [Chorus] I’m alone… even when they surround me Alone… in a room full of sound, see They talk but they don’t hear the war in my chest I’m alone… wearin’ the smile that I wear best Alone… yeah I’m alone… [Bridge – slower, heavier, more melodic/vulnerable] If I disappeared tomorrow would the silence even change? Would the group chat keep movin’ like I never had a name? I don’t want the pity, I just want somebody to see That the strongest lookin’ ones can still be on their knees I’m tired of the act, tired of the armor I wear Tired of pretendin’ that this weight isn’t there [Verse 3 – rapid-fire aggressive climax] So I spit it on the beat ‘cause the paper don’t judge These bars are the only place the truth doesn’t budge Depression got chapters, self-doubt got a sequel Every morning I wake up and rewrite the evil I still show up, still create, still try to keep goin’ Even when the fog is thick and the hope starts slowin’ This song is the scream that I never let out The confession I carry when nobody’s around If you feel this in your chest then you already know You ain’t weak for the war that you fight on your own We can be surrounded and still feel the freeze But at least in these bars… I don’t have to be [Final Chorus – bigger, more layered] I’m alone… even when they surround me Alone… in a room full of sound, see They talk but they don’t hear the war in my chest I’m alone… wearin’ the smile that I wear best Alone… Yeah… I’m alone… But at least now you know… [Outro] (soft again) Crowded rooms… empty seats in my head… Still here… still fightin’… Still alone…