the curse came back 💔🥀 (alternate empty room version)

Fenix Ashford

nu metal, ballad

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Lyrics:

[Intro, Broken piano, Room noise, Fenix, Barely audible vocal]
I really thought it was gone

I thought maybe this time
Love had finally stayed

Then the room got quiet again

And I knew that feeling

[Verse 1, Fenix, Fragile cracked close-mic vocal]
I still leave space beside me like somebody might come back
Still look down at my phone when the whole room turns black
I remember every promise even ones that couldn't stay
And every time somebody leaves, they all come back the same damn day
Not the people, just the memories, every ending in a line
Every version of myself that thought that love would work this time
I know I'm not really cursed, but when nobody's around
It's hard to hear the truth beneath that old familiar sound

[Pre-Chorus, Single piano notes]
It says
Everybody leaves
It says
Don't believe
It says
You're gonna lose
Anyone you ever need

[Chorus, Guitars slowly crashing in, Fenix, Breaking vocal]
The curse came back
The second this room went quiet
And I hate how much I miss
Having somebody beside me
I don't want my life to end
I just want this fucking pain to
I want one love that doesn't disappear
Before I get used to saying I love you
The curse came back
And God, I'm tired of believing it

[Post-Chorus, Guitars fading, Whispered layered vocal]
Please don't let this be forever
Please don't let this be forever

[Verse 2, Bare clean guitar, Cello]
I don't need some perfect person from a movie or a dream
I just want somebody honest who still wants the real me
Someone I can text good morning, someone I can call at night
Someone who can see my worst days and still choose to treat me right
I wanna know what staying feels like without expecting it to end
I wanna love somebody deeply and still get to call them mine again
But tonight there's only silence and a pillow by the wall
And I hate that being lonely makes me question it all

[Pre-Chorus, Fenix, Voice trembling]
Was I too much?
Was I not enough?
Did I misunderstand
What everybody calls love?

Then a quieter voice says
You don't have to know tonight

[Chorus, Huge downtuned guitars, Raw vocal]
The curse came back
The second this room went quiet
And I hate how much I miss
Having somebody beside me
I don't want my life to end
I just want this fucking pain to
I want one love that doesn't disappear
Before I get used to saying I love you
The curse came back
And God, I'm tired of believing it

[Break, Instruments dropping to room noise]
Five endings
Five sets of memories
Five times I wondered
What was wrong with me

And every photograph
Every old goodnight
Feels heavier
When I'm alone tonight

[Breakdown, Crushing guitars, Fenix, Anguished screamed-sung vocal]
I DON'T WANT TO BE CURSED
I DON'T WANT TO BE SCARED
I DON'T WANT EVERY GOOD THING
TO FEEL LIKE IT'S ALREADY DISAPPEARED

I JUST WANT THE PAIN TO STOP
I JUST WANT THE FEAR TO END
I WANT SOMEBODY WHO LOVES ME
AND STILL WANTS ME TOMORROW AGAIN

I'M SO FUCKING TIRED
OF GOODBYES FEELING THE SAME
BUT EVERY PERSON WHO LEFT
DOESN'T GET TO WRITE MY NAME

[Bridge, Solo piano, Fenix, Tearful exhausted vocal]
Maybe the saddest part
Is I still believe in love

After every goodbye
After every night like this
Some little part of me
Still hopes somebody stays

Maybe someday I'll have someone
Who knows every scar in my heart
And doesn't treat loving me
Like a countdown until we fall apart

But tonight I don't need forever
I need somebody I trust to hear me say
I'm lonely
I'm hurting
And I'm really not okay

[Build, Cello and distant drums]
So I'll make the call
Even if my voice shakes
I'll say I need someone
Even if the words break

Not forever
Not forever
Please don't let this hurt forever

[Final Chorus, Massive guitars and strings, Fenix, Voice cracking]
THE CURSE CAME BACK
But maybe it was never real
Maybe it's the name I gave
To every wound I haven't healed
I'm lonely as fuck tonight
And I wish somebody were here
But I don't want my story ending
Just because tonight hurts this severe

I want the pain to end
And someday I still want love
Someone I choose who chooses me
When ordinary days get tough
The curse came back
But it doesn't get forever

[Final Post-Chorus, Band collapsing away]
It doesn't get forever
It doesn't get forever

Neither does this night

[Outro, Broken piano, Room noise, Fenix, Natural quiet voice]
I think that's what hurts the most

I still have so much love to give
And nowhere to put it tonight

But that doesn't mean
There'll never be somewhere for it to go

So I'm gonna tell somebody
That tonight is hard

And tomorrow
I'll try again

I still want love
I still want someone who stays

I still want a future

So no
The curse doesn't get the last word

[Long silence]

Goodnight

[End]

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Lyrics: [Intro, Broken piano, Room noise, Fenix, Barely audible vocal] I really thought it was gone I thought maybe this time Love had finally stayed Then the room got quiet again And I knew that feeling [Verse 1, Fenix, Fragile cracked close-mic vocal] I still leave space beside me like somebody might come back Still look down at my phone when the whole room turns black I remember every promise even ones that couldn't stay And every time somebody leaves, they all come back the same damn day Not the people, just the memories, every ending in a line Every version of myself that thought that love would work this time I know I'm not really cursed, but when nobody's around It's hard to hear the truth beneath that old familiar sound [Pre-Chorus, Single piano notes] It says Everybody leaves It says Don't believe It says You're gonna lose Anyone you ever need [Chorus, Guitars slowly crashing in, Fenix, Breaking vocal] The curse came back The second this room went quiet And I hate how much I miss Having somebody beside me I don't want my life to end I just want this fucking pain to I want one love that doesn't disappear Before I get used to saying I love you The curse came back And God, I'm tired of believing it [Post-Chorus, Guitars fading, Whispered layered vocal] Please don't let this be forever Please don't let this be forever [Verse 2, Bare clean guitar, Cello] I don't need some perfect person from a movie or a dream I just want somebody honest who still wants the real me Someone I can text good morning, someone I can call at night Someone who can see my worst days and still choose to treat me right I wanna know what staying feels like without expecting it to end I wanna love somebody deeply and still get to call them mine again But tonight there's only silence and a pillow by the wall And I hate that being lonely makes me question it all [Pre-Chorus, Fenix, Voice trembling] Was I too much? Was I not enough? Did I misunderstand What everybody calls love? Then a quieter voice says You don't have to know tonight [Chorus, Huge downtuned guitars, Raw vocal] The curse came back The second this room went quiet And I hate how much I miss Having somebody beside me I don't want my life to end I just want this fucking pain to I want one love that doesn't disappear Before I get used to saying I love you The curse came back And God, I'm tired of believing it [Break, Instruments dropping to room noise] Five endings Five sets of memories Five times I wondered What was wrong with me And every photograph Every old goodnight Feels heavier When I'm alone tonight [Breakdown, Crushing guitars, Fenix, Anguished screamed-sung vocal] I DON'T WANT TO BE CURSED I DON'T WANT TO BE SCARED I DON'T WANT EVERY GOOD THING TO FEEL LIKE IT'S ALREADY DISAPPEARED I JUST WANT THE PAIN TO STOP I JUST WANT THE FEAR TO END I WANT SOMEBODY WHO LOVES ME AND STILL WANTS ME TOMORROW AGAIN I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF GOODBYES FEELING THE SAME BUT EVERY PERSON WHO LEFT DOESN'T GET TO WRITE MY NAME [Bridge, Solo piano, Fenix, Tearful exhausted vocal] Maybe the saddest part Is I still believe in love After every goodbye After every night like this Some little part of me Still hopes somebody stays Maybe someday I'll have someone Who knows every scar in my heart And doesn't treat loving me Like a countdown until we fall apart But tonight I don't need forever I need somebody I trust to hear me say I'm lonely I'm hurting And I'm really not okay [Build, Cello and distant drums] So I'll make the call Even if my voice shakes I'll say I need someone Even if the words break Not forever Not forever Please don't let this hurt forever [Final Chorus, Massive guitars and strings, Fenix, Voice cracking] THE CURSE CAME BACK But maybe it was never real Maybe it's the name I gave To every wound I haven't healed I'm lonely as fuck tonight And I wish somebody were here But I don't want my story ending Just because tonight hurts this severe I want the pain to end And someday I still want love Someone I choose who chooses me When ordinary days get tough The curse came back But it doesn't get forever [Final Post-Chorus, Band collapsing away] It doesn't get forever It doesn't get forever Neither does this night [Outro, Broken piano, Room noise, Fenix, Natural quiet voice] I think that's what hurts the most I still have so much love to give And nowhere to put it tonight But that doesn't mean There'll never be somewhere for it to go So I'm gonna tell somebody That tonight is hard And tomorrow I'll try again I still want love I still want someone who stays I still want a future So no The curse doesn't get the last word [Long silence] Goodnight [End]

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