[Hook] I’m cool with the shadow that’s stuck in my head I make peace with the thoughts that shoulda been dead Don’t try and fix man, I’ve been here before Yeah, I’m messed up, but I’m not at war [Verse 1] Wanted the limelight, not papers they print Guess you can’t have both, had to swallow that hint Wanted the ratings for all of my sins Still feel invisible out in the spins Yeah, I wanted the lot, never thought of the fee Now I’m stuck with a stranger that’s lookin’ like me Built it from nothin’ to watch it just leak Mad how your visions can rot in a week All I ever wanted was master the pen Bleed on the page just to reset again Used every bar just to lighten the stress Now every win got a weight on my chest Got what I chased but it don’t feel right Every lil’ high got a drop in the night Kinda like winnin’ but losin’ my sight Now I need space just to pattern my mind [Hook] I’m cool with the shadow that’s stuck in my head I make peace with the thoughts that shoulda been dead Don’t try and fix man, I’ve been here before Yeah, I’m messed up, but I’m not at war [Verse 2] I ain’t givin’ advice, but I heard what they said "Live in the moment, don’t slip into dread" So I keep writin’, still locked in my head Even when everything’s hangin’ by threads Sometimes I wonder where all of it’s bred Thoughts get dark when the sky goes red No wonder I feel like I’m losin’ my step When my own mind don’t clock what it left Feels like I need someone cuttin’ between Me and the madness I keep in the deep ‘Cause what I love is destroyin’ my peace But I still need it just so I breathe Voices keep knockin’, I leave it on mute Drift in the city with eyes on pursuit I just repeat what’s been stuck in the loop Don’t blame me, I’m just ridin’ the route [Hook] I’m cool with the shadow that’s stuck in my head I make peace with the thoughts that shoulda been dead Don’t try and fix man, I’ve been here before Yeah, I’m messed up, but I’m not at war [Verse 3] Call it madness, but this is the view I don’t see me how you’re seein’ it too Tried bein’ normal, I patterned it through Still never fit in the suit that you drew So I stopped fightin’ the ting that I am Stopped tryna scrub every scar off my hand If I break, then I break where I stand At least I don’t bolt from the bang Now I just let it sit heavy inside Some days I crash, some days I survive Never pretend that I’m fully alive I just embrace all the mess in my life If one yout’ hears it and feels less alone Then all of this static had reason to show Turn all this pain to a piece of my own Even if I’m still broke to the bone [Bridge] I tried to fight it, I tried to switch lanes I tried to cut but it stayed in my veins No more mask on, no more games I say my name with all my pain I let it knock, I let it stay Stopped tryna push all the darkness away If this is me, then I’m okay I’m still afraid, but I’ll say it straight I’m still afraid, but I’ll say it straight [Final Hook] I’m cool with the shadow that’s stuck in my head I make peace with the thoughts that shoulda been dead Don’t try and fix man, I’ve been here before Yeah, I’m messed up, but I’m not at war
