Apotheosis A sick rat Claustrophobic inside your voice Quiet like a mouse (shh) Eyes sharp like a cat (Verse 1) It gets black, In the Florescent lightning remember a number you would have known if you were dying Woke up with Greg’s Bedside manner Spoke to me like knives to a hammer He said I was the reason his girl’s dead Still trapped in his own head Anyway (Pause) Anyway Found out How an E.M.T. Takes a three-sixty to the the left (to the left) No one knew if it was P.P.D. You already know what happens next (What happens next) Playing with scripts like doctored up Barbie dolls Your Kate spade bags aren’t fooling any one of us (Anyone of us) When you can’t get it done Your only excuse is this, miss girl Too much of a heavy case load, funny in the circle of bad habits , you fund it How charitable of you Until you started to loose Enter rehab , When they knew I was not an addict (bitch) How much of my money was that (bitch) I wonder how Monique would have reacted if I seized up 8 months in (Wow, bad decisions) (layered distorted vocals) So Use me like a bullet straight to the head That’s a dark thought, that I’ve always had I got it back, got away, It all happened again Just not as bad (Just not as bad) Not many could survive after that Oh, I made secret plans, Here I am This is me I'm used to that I’m used to that (Soft verse) So think of us in Providence October in Boston (singin’ happy birthday) Magnolias on the floor It’s okay (Loud outro verse) People deal with grief in different ways Then throw it all away with empty bottles, screams Endless dreams Of New York, Remember You were never done with burning candy So it’s not a question of Who turned their back on who If you’re still reaching for the brandy (Instrumental break - fade out) To love me is to cut me (To love me is to cut me in half)
