EMPTY MAY — Street Dolls I knew you were reaching for something underneath Something deeper than the pieces that I showed you when you asked I gave you every quiet part I thought I could afford But every time I opened up, I lost a little more You kept looking at me like there was something I refused Like I had some hidden room of love I simply wouldn't choose I tried to meet you halfway, tried to stretch myself that far But you can't pull a river from a place that's gone dry I'm not keeping secrets, I'm just empty There's no hidden ocean underneath me I've been giving from a place that's almost gone Every time I softened Every time I let you closer Was another piece of me already gone I'm empty, I know You can see it when I let you go You keep waiting for a version of me That has something left to give I'm empty, I know And I hate that I can't make it whole You keep reaching for a heart that's already worn through I can't fill you when there's nothing left in me too And I know the way you look at me Like I'm choosing every inch of distance between us Like I built these walls because I wanted you outside Like I don't feel every second that you're standing on the other side But you never saw what happened when I left myself exposed How every open door became another place to lose control So I learned to keep a little darkness where nobody could reach And you called that distance when it was the only thing keeping me You say you need more I hear you, I know But every little thing you ask for Feels like something I already gave away I'm not withholding, I'm just fractured I'm still carrying the pieces Of every version of myself I destroyed trying to be enough I'm empty, I know You can hear it when I say your name You keep waiting for a flood from me But there isn't any rain I'm empty, I know And I hate that I can't make it whole You keep reaching for a heart that's already worn through I can't fill you when there's nothing left in me too Maybe that's the cruelest part of us You need more than I can carry And I need less than what you're asking But neither one of us knows how to leave So we keep calling this love Because the other word hurts too much We keep standing in the same room Pretending nothing has changed I loved you like a wound loves pressure Going back just to prove I could still feel And you loved me like a hunger Pulling harder every time I tried to heal Neither one of us was getting better We were only getting better at pretending I'm empty, I know You can hear it when I say your name You keep waiting for a flood from me But there isn't any rain I'm empty, I know And I hate that I can't make it whole You keep reaching for a heart that's already worn through I can't fill you when there's nothing left in me too I wanted to be everything... I just couldn't disappear to become it.
