“Death Is Always Around Me” — by LadiieSavage

Yeah… You only know the version of me I let live. Not the blood on my spirit. Not the nights I begged the universe to either heal me… or finish me. [Verse 1] Nobody knows what I carry inside Smile so pretty while my soul still dies I was fighting demons every damn night Questioning why I survived this life I tried to disappear inside the dark Burn every bridge, rip myself apart Wanted to leave everything I knew behind ‘Cause feeling numb felt safer than alive There was nights I ain’t care if I breathed Cold heart chained to anxiety Screaming at walls while nobody heard Soul so broken I stopped using words People judged me from the outside view But they ain’t ever had darkness glued to you PTSD carved deep in my veins Still waking up shaking from the pain I seen death before it even arrived Felt it creeping through the people in my life That gift ain’t beautiful, that curse cuts deep ‘Cause I feel every soul that cries when they sleep [Pre-Chorus] I can read lies through the energy shift Feel fake love every time it hits The universe gave me eyes people fear to face That’s why I walk alone… that’s why I separate [Chorus] I walk with shadows, I don’t fear the night Turned all my trauma into sacred fire Death touched my skin, I still survived Now the darkness in me learned to fight I feel what they feel when they break apart Carry heavy pain that was never mine And when death starts circling the ones I love I feel that storm before it arrives [Verse 2] Been hearing whispers in the silence late night Like something calling when I close my eyes Don’t know if it’s spirit, fate, or the other side But something keeps pulling when I wanna hide I followed signs I ain’t fully understand Dreams too vivid, pressure in my hands Energy shifting every place I go Like my soul remembers things I don’t Sometimes I wonder why I feel so deep Why death walks close every time I sleep Why I can sense when something ain’t right Or why darkness fears me when I finally fight Maybe I’m lost… maybe I’m chosen… Maybe the answers hidden in what ain’t spoken Still trying to figure out what all this means While something bigger keeps watching me [Bridge] I’m not insane, I’m emotionally scarred Heart too deep, soul too dark Empath energy tearing through my chest Feeling everybody pain till there’s nothing left I seen death standing next to my door Taking people I can’t hold anymore Every funeral killed pieces of me Now I live with ghosts nobody sees The darkness tried using pain to destroy me Turn my own thoughts into enemies But the universe kept pulling me from that grave Even when I ain’t wanna be saved [Final Chorus] I walk with shadows but now they walk with me Pain made a monster they ain’t ready to see The darkness whispered death every night in my ear But my spirit refused to disappear Now I move colder, wiser, harder to reach Scars on my soul but I finally found peace LadiieSavage… This the rawest me Half healed… half haunted… still breathing. [Outro] If you listen close… the universe talks back.