JUST HAVING A BAD DAY Friday night… Why it feel like this… who's to blame Rain writing letters on the glass My face staring back like it wants to ask Who are you tonight? Why you look so tired? Room so quiet I can hear my breath Feels like I’m arguing with myself Window turning into a mirror And I don’t like what’s getting clearer Cell phone lighting up the dark Names keep flashing through my heart “What’s wrong?” “You good?” “Where you at?” I don’t even know how to answer that Friday night but it don’t feel right Blue reflections and neon lights I’m in the room but miles away Tryna survive just one of those days --- And I don’t wanna explain it Don’t wanna fake a smile If I say I’m fine, I’m lying I just need a little while I’m not falling apart Just tired in my soul Can I sit with the silence Till I feel whole --- It’s just one of those daaaays Where everything slips away Work don’t feel right, home don’t feel safe And I don’t know what to say Rain on a Friday night Phone lighting up my face But I don’t wanna talk right now I just need my space I’m not broken, I’m just worn thin Tryna find where I begin again It’s not the end of the world It just feels that way today --- Truth is… it ain’t just today It’s been building up this way Little cracks I wouldn’t show Now they’re wider than I know I’ve been strong for everybody else Put my own heart on the shelf Smiling through what I can’t explain Carrying weight I never named Work keeps asking for more of me Home keeps needing the best of me People pulling at every side But I ain’t told nobody I’m tired I’m tired of pretending I’m fine Tired of saying, “Give it time” Tired of looking in my own eyes And not liking what I find It ain’t the world falling apart It’s just me falling behind --- And I don’t want pity Don’t want sympathy I just want a moment To sit here honestly --- It’s just one of those daaaays Where everything slips away Work don’t feel right, home don’t feel safe And I don’t know what to say It’s okay… I’ll be fine… All the questions feel the same… Only I can deal with this pain… Rain on a Friday night Phone lighting up my face But I don’t wanna talk right now I just need my space We’re allowed a moment of silence… It’s okay… I’m not broken, I’m just worn thin Only human… only human… Tryna find where I begin again I’ll be fine… It’s not the end of the world It just feels that way today Only human… only human… --- I’m only human… Only human… You’ll survive this. --- Written by 12 Gauge
