[Intro - Low Distorted Whisper] Do I really wanna change? Or do I just want them to stop asking? … Maybe there’s a difference. Maybe I don’t even know anymore. [Verse 1] They keep telling me I need to change Like they know what’s inside my brain Like I woke up and chose this place Like I don’t already hate my face Maybe I should clean up the wreck Maybe I should finally step Away from everything that pulls me down But would I do it if they weren’t around? Would I still want a different life If nobody cared if I survived? Would I still reach for something new If there was nobody watching what I do? [Pre-Chorus] That’s the thought that keeps crawling back Through every crack inside my head Am I trying to save myself Or just becoming what they expect? [Chorus] Do I really wanna change? Or do I just wanna make them proud? Do I really wanna live? Or am I scared to say it out loud? I don’t know what’s waiting after this I don’t know what death even is And that’s what scares me the most I’m standing at the edge of something I don’t even know [Verse 2] Everybody talks like they know Where I’m supposed to go “Get better, move on, let it go” But what if I don’t fucking know? What if part of me wants the light And another part prefers the night? What if I can’t tell which one’s mine When they’ve been fighting all this time? I think about the end sometimes Not knowing if I’m ready to cross that line Not knowing if I want it gone Or if I just want the pain to stop [Bridge - Glitched / Building] Change… Change… Change… Is it my choice? Is it their voice? Is this my life? Or just their noise? [Final Chorus] Do I really wanna change? I keep asking myself again Maybe I don’t want to disappear Maybe I just don’t know how to live with this I don’t know what’s waiting after this I don’t know what death even is So I won’t pretend I know the answer I’m still here… Still fucking searching for it. [Outro - Whisper] Maybe changing doesn’t mean becoming someone else. Maybe it means finding out who the hell I was before all of this.
