Every door left open still feels locked Every promise tastes like something I lost Learned how to smile with a tightened jaw Say I’m fine just to end the talk The room gets smaller when the lights come up Chest caves in when I try to trust I rehearse what I’ll never say Words stall out halfway Learned how to disappear Standing right here Hands shaking, throat tied shut Still fighting just to breathe enough I’m moving on alone I’ve been carrying this too long Still standing when you’re gone I’ve been carrying this too long Learning how to let you go Tired of carrying names they gave Tired of proving I didn’t break Buried parts just to stay alive they scream when I close my eyes Tried to talk but my voice gave out Fear wrapped tight around my mouth Don’t know who I was before Just know I won’t be that anymore If leaving means I stand alone Then I’ll learn to walk on my own Don’t pretend this didn’t leave a mark Don’t say it didn’t tear me apart I’m moving on alone I’ve been carrying this too long Still standing when you’re gone I’ve been carrying this too long Learning how to let you GO LET YOU GO LET YOU GO YOU LEFT AND I LEARNED TO VANISH I SPOKE AND NO ONE HEARD IT I FOUGHT JUST TO STAY AWAKE DON’T SAY IT DIDN’T CHANGE ME I’ve been carrying this too long Still standing when you’re gone I’ve been carrying this too long Learning how to let you go
