**Lyrics** [Intro, Fragile fingerpicked acoustic guitar, Room noise] One year today Yeah Of course it was today [Verse 1, Original melody on acoustic guitar] I woke up and already knew the date Didn't need my phone to tell me anyway That picture by my bed was staring back Same crooked frame Same stupid crack I made it through breakfast, barely touched the toast Kept telling myself I'd gotten used to ghosts Then Kaylynn called and said we need to talk Four little words And my whole day stopped [Pre-Chorus, Drums entering quietly, Acoustic guitar building] I said did I do something? She said no I said then tell me what changed She just said I don't know [Chorus, Layered acoustic guitars, Full acoustic pop punk band] You picked the worst damn day to disappear One year since I lost somebody I still wish was here And now you're leaving with no reason why Just sorry, Fenix Then a quiet goodbye I was holding myself together with whatever I had Now there's a fist-sized hole in every plan Don't tell me someday this'll all make sense I needed one fucking reason You gave me nothing instead [Post-Chorus, Ringing acoustic guitars] No reason why No reason why Just goodbye [Verse 2, Muted acoustic guitars] I sat on the floor with my back to the bed Read our old messages, then read them again Not looking for some magic sentence hidden there Just anything that made the ending feel fair My hoodie sleeve was pulled over my hand The room got small in a way I couldn't stand Maggie, Shadow, Tila crossed my mind Then her Then Kaylynn Then all of it at the same fucking time [Pre-Chorus, Building drums, Rhythmic acoustic strumming] My friend said come outside I said give me a minute Then twenty went by And I was still sitting in it [Chorus, Layered acoustic guitars, Cracked vocal] You picked the worst damn day to disappear One year since I lost somebody I still wish was here And now you're leaving with no reason why Just sorry, Fenix Then a quiet goodbye I was holding myself together with whatever I had Now there's a fist-sized hole in every plan Don't tell me someday this'll all make sense I needed one fucking reason You gave me nothing instead [Verse 3, Fingerpicked acoustic guitar, Restrained drums] By midnight my voice was completely shot From asking questions nobody could answer for me Why today? Why like this? Why couldn't you just say what changed? I knocked over a box trying to find my charger Old photos spilled out across the carpet I laughed once because the timing was so bad Then sat there crying over everything I had [Bridge, Half-time drums, Stripped acoustic guitar, Raw vocal] This isn't just you leaving That's the part nobody gets Today already had a name Before you added yours to it I can survive another goodbye I know because somehow I'm still here But knowing I can make it through Doesn't make tonight hurt less [Break, Fingerpicked acoustic guitar, Room noise] One year today And now this too [Final Chorus, Full acoustic arrangement, Subtle gang vocals] You picked the worst damn day to disappear One year since I lost somebody I still wish was here And now you're leaving with no reason why Just sorry, Fenix Then a quiet goodbye I was holding myself together with whatever I had Now I'm picking up the pieces again with both hands Maybe someday this'll make some kind of sense But tonight I needed one fucking reason And you gave me nothing instead [Extended Outro, Ringing acoustic guitars] No reason why No clean ending No last big fight Just a date on the calendar I already hated for life I got up off the floor around two Didn't feel better Just knew what I had to do Make it through tonight Then morning after that Not some perfect comeback Just one day at a time [Outro, Fragile fingerpicked acoustic guitar] One year today Yeah I made it through the day
