Fallen Leaves

Some things are just too hard to say Even practicing in the bathroom mirror Wiping the tears away... Wish I had your starlight in my darkest night Wish I was your harbor when the storm would strike I wanted to be yours, completely. But it didn't go that way. The wind scattered our fallen leaves To a place we'd never see... And now I walk through a garden of thorns With these calloused hands you left me to hold The canvas of my mind is painted gray and cold And out on the porch, in the freezing rain I don't know if I caused or just bled the pain. I just don't know... I don't know anymore. I watch the rain wash the streets, washing away who we were I scream into the void, but the silence is all I hear. Tried to sketch your face, but my trembling hands just break Colors bleeding down the drain, promises the earth will take. A sea of lead has swallowed up our little island. And now I walk through a garden of thorns With these calloused hands you left me to hold The canvas of my mind is painted gray and cold And out on the porch, in the freezing rain I don't know if I caused or just bled the pain. I just don't know... I don't know anymore. The room is spinning, gravity let me go! We were glass statues waiting for the final blow! And the wind is howling, banging on the door... I don't wanna stay! I can't take this anymore! Why can't it be mine? Why can't I have your starlight?! I know... I know someday you'll have a beautiful life. I know you'll keep shining in a clear, open sky. But why... why couldn't it be mine? Why not in my sky? Fallen leaves... Walking through a blind garden... Make me cry... make me cry... I don't wanna stay.