[INTRO — almost spoken] I’m insane... Just drowning in pain... Tragically laughing at the things I believe... that just keep killing me. [VERSE 1] I make a joke when it hurts too much. Say I’m okay when I’m losing touch. Smile at the ceiling, like it understands— while everything certain falls out of my hands. And maybe I’m wrong. Maybe I’m right. Maybe I’ve just been awake every night trying to find some beautiful reason why everything changes the moment I believe it. [PRE-CHORUS] So I laugh— Ha... Ha... God, listen to me. I’m laughing at something that’s killing me. [CHORUS] I’m insane... Just drowning in pain... Tragically laughing while calling my name. And the things I believe, the things that I see— I hold them so tightly they’re strangling me. So I laugh... because what else can I do? When I don’t even know what inside me is true. [DROP — vocal fragments] What is true? (What is—what is—) What is me? (Who am—who am—) Ha... There I go again. [VERSE 2] I don't need somebody to tell me I'm crazy. I need somebody near me when everything changes. Someone who doesn't have to understand— just don't disappear when I can't understand. Because underneath every impossible thought, there's somebody exhausted from everything fought. Still wanting tomorrow. Still wanting a home. Still wanting one person to say— “You don't have to figure it out alone.” [FINAL CHORUS] Maybe I’m insane... Maybe that isn't my name. Maybe I'm somebody drowning in pain— tragically laughing, still trying to breathe, learning I don't have to die for what I believe. Let it loosen its hands. Let it fall where it falls. I don't need every answer tonight after all. And if I laugh— let me laugh until I cry. Not because I want to disappear... because some part of me still wants to survive. [OUTRO — dry vocal] I’m still here. ... That's enough for tonight.
