(Verse 1) I wake up wearing yesterday’s strength, Still smells like fear, still tastes like pain. They say I changed, I just rearranged All the parts of me I couldn’t save. There’s a figure in my shadow that I let speak first, He learned how to smile through the worst of the worst. If you knew how often I hand him the wheel, You’d know why I’m numb to how I really feel. (Pre-Chorus) I don’t lie—I just don’t explain, Some truths collapse if you say their name. So I tuck mine deep where the light won’t reach, Let the stronger voice do the talking for me. (Chorus) L33k steps forward when my legs give out, Carries my name when I’m buried in doubt. He don’t flinch, he don’t fold, he don’t show that side, So I let him stand where I learned to hide. If I peel him off, I might come undone, ’Cause he’s every war that I already won. Yeah, I know he’s borrowed, I know he’s not me, But he’s the only thing keeping me on my feet. (Verse 2) They applaud the calm, never hear the noise, Never see the cost of being that poised. I built a spine out of pressure and time, Now it’s hard to tell where his ends and mine. I remember nights when I almost broke, Hands shaking bad, couldn’t even hope. That’s when he showed up, taught me how to stay, How to look unbothered while I’m wasting away. (Bridge) I don’t hate him—I owe him my breath, But every shield starts feeling like a threat. ’Cause I don’t know who I am without that glare, Without that presence standing right there. (Chorus) L33k steps forward when my legs give out, Carries my name when I’m buried in doubt. He don’t flinch, he don’t fold, he don’t show that side, So I let him stand where I learned to hide. If I peel him off, I might come undone, ’Cause he’s every war that I already won. Yeah, I know he’s borrowed, I know he’s not me, But he’s the only thing keeping me on my feet. (Outro) Maybe someday I’ll speak in my own tone, But tonight I survive by letting him go… No— By letting him hold me together.
