Took a trip to the past And I hate what I grasped Cause I saw what I had To deal with So I pulled back up In a hoodie and a mask Took a baseball bat And decided enough was enough At the pinnacle I was Doing what I must All that mental fuzz Had me in a fuss Left me with disgust Left me without trust Put me in its cuffs brought me to my brink made it hard to think almost Made me break Almost Made me take My own life Im Astonished But I want it Abolished Cause My conscious Acknowledged the Knowledge But I need it Demolished Cause it left me Dishonest And it broke me to Pieces Cause I knew that holding onto diseases Wouldn't help me Defeat it (I won't go back) (Won't Go back) I won't go back Never hold back Cause I know that Im in the best Place that i've been (Place that i've been) Wanted success So I dug in Said im done with Feeling this way Now I won't go back Never hold back Cause I know that Im in the best Place that I’ve been Hard to believe I survived Don't know what kept me alive but I made it Through And i've got a new Better point of view guess I really knew That It would get better Never felt the way I do Better than I ever was Used to being so confused Now it's clear I'm at the cusp No one said it then So I'll say it now Im proud of me I proud to be An anomaly No apologies I was backed into a wall I was gonna end it all Looking at my every flaw Waiting for the final straw But I Let the other shoe drop Even when it wouldn't stop Said I gotta reach the top So I did and I won't go back Never hold back Cause I know that Im in the best Place that i've been (Place that i've been) Wanted success So I dug in Said im done with Feeling this way Now I won't go back Never hold back Cause I know that Im in the best Place that I’ve been Disorders Have tortured The borders Inside But order Cut corners Lit mortars So I Could make it to the finish Pushing through my limits Don't know how I did it But I did every day And I got made it to the light Didn't let me fade So I fought it day and night Said I couldn't wait But my patience gave me sight I went the distance Cause without persistence I was diminished To nothing but wishes So I broke through the panes Like it's glass And I smashed through the pains of the past Till I knew I was safe here at last (I won't go back) (Won't Go back) I won't go back Never hold back Cause I know that Im in the best Place that i've been (Place that i've been) Wanted success So I dug in Said im done with Feeling this way Now I won't go back Never hold back Cause I know that Im in the best Place that I’ve been
