I Wish We Could Talk About It

(Verse 1) I said “I think about dying,” they said “why would you say that?” I said “because I do,” they said “dude, don’t play that” I bring up the truth, and they act like I sinned So I throw on a smile and start over again I say weird sh*t just to feel like I'm breathing They all get uncomfortable, start slowly leaving But I don’t stop — I do it anyway ‘Cause keeping it in makes me rot away (Chorus) I wish we could talk about it But no one’s built for that They’d rather fake a smile Than admit they’re feeling flat I say what I say 'cause I *have to* It's not for shock or art It's just how I stay alive While y’all call it “falling apart” (Verse 2) They roll their eyes when I joke about pain But if I don’t laugh, I’ll go insane I drop heavy lines in casual chats They say “you’re too much,” I say “yeah, imagine that” They call me intense, say I make things weird But I’m just the one who *actually hears* What no one says but everyone thinks You shut it down, I let it sink (Chorus) I wish we could talk about it Without all the flinching and shame But every time I try to be honest They treat me like I’m the one to blame I say it anyway ‘cause I need to Even if you’ll never get it I’m not here to make you comfy I’m just here so I don’t regret it (Bridge) Let’s talk about grief at brunch Let’s scream-laugh through the end Let’s write songs they’ll never understand And send ‘em anyway, then press send Let’s make the quiet loud Let’s make the weird proud Let’s be the ones who say it out loud (Final Chorus – Defiant) I wish we could talk about it But most of you don’t want real You want hashtags and good lighting Not actual wounds you feel So I’ll keep talking anyway Even when you scroll past fast 'Cause silence never saved me And I want my words to last