✧ 𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓈 𝒾𝓈 𝓃ℴ𝓉 𝓂ℯ ⋆｡𖦹°‧📼 ✧ (outro)

[intro – tape click / static] play it back… one more time… maybe if I watch it slowly I’ll find the part where I disappeared… [verse 1] there’s a girl inside the screen soft and smiling, seventeen lace on skin and glossed-up lips holding hurt between her fingertips… she laughs like nothing ever broke wears her bruises like a joke lets you love her halfway through just enough to keep you… [pre-chorus] I kept cutting parts of me away… to fit inside the frame… [chorus] this is not me… this is what you made me be… a pretty little glitch on tape a face I learned to imitate… this is not me… but she looks so much like me… same eyes, same tears, same mouth… just emptier somehow… [verse 2] I wore softness like a dress let you touch what I had left turned myself into your dream till I forgot what I could be… all the mirrors in my room only show me pieces now someone fragile, someone false someone I don’t know at all… [pre-chorus 2] I thought if I loved hard enough… I’d survive becoming less… (soft laugh, breaking) guess not… [chorus] this is not me… this is who I had to be… to keep you close, to keep you near to make you stay another year… this is not me… I can barely fucking breathe… all that’s left’s a blur of light a ghost still trying to feel alive… [bridge – stripped / trembling] where did I go…? when did it start…? was it the first time you made me feel small… or the first time I said nothing at all…? I keep rewinding every scene… looking for the girl I used to be… but she’s gone… she’s gone… [final chorus – slow / devastating] this is not me… but it’s all that’s left to see… static skin and blurry eyes a body dressed in borrowed light… this is not me… say you can tell the difference, please… before I fade into the frame… and forget I had a name… [outro – tape warble / fading] stop the tape… turn it off… I don’t wanna watch her anymore… …she was never me… (static)