I came down here to disappear but the dark already knew my name It said I've been keeping something for you it said she wouldn't leave, she stayed I thought I'd hollowed every room thought I'd left nothing behind but there she was in the lowest place still breathing, still mine I didn't find the light I found something older I found the part of me that never learned to fold She was waiting in the dark she never left at all she just went where it was quiet when she heard me start to fall I don't need saving from the night I need to learn its name I went down looking for the end and found myself again I know the shape of giving up I've worn it like a second skin but she who lives below the noise she never once gave in She kept the ember, kept the name kept every word I swallowed whole Turns out the dark's not where you die it's where you find what no one stole I didn't find the light I found something older I found the part of me that never learned to fold She was waiting in the dark she never left at all she just went where it was quiet when she heard me start to fall I don't need saving from the night I need to learn its name I went down looking for the end and found myself again I used to pray for morning like the dark was something wrong but even broken things need somewhere quiet enough to hear their song maybe I was never lost maybe I was looking in the light for something that could only ever live down here in the not-yet in the underneath in the place I was too afraid to stay She is not a wound she is not a warning she is every word I buried before I learned that burying was mourning She is still here she is STILL here and I am done I am DONE apologizing for the dark She was waiting in the dark she never left at all she just went where it was quiet when she heard me start to fall I don't need saving anymore I know this darkness by name I went down looking for the end and found myself and she remained and she remained
