Under The Christmas Haze

Verse 1 Thirteen years old, joint in my hand, My brother passed it, thought I’d understand. Laughed in the snow, thought it was fun, First hit of Christmas Weed, under the sun. Back then, it was all just a game, With the crew, stayin' the same. Didn’t know what the habit would cost, Thought I’d found somethin' that couldn’t be lost. --- Verse 2 Kept it a secret, hidin' at school, Actin' clean, playin' the fool. Mom and Dad, they had no clue, But every hit, my world turned blue. I was livin' two lives, maskin' the pain, Good kid in the day, by night in the chain. Missed opportunities, let ‘em slip by, Caught in a haze, couldn’t reach the sky. --- Refrain Under the Christmas haze, life got cold, Lost in the smoke, stories untold. Friends came and went, but the weed stayed close, In the North Pole nights, I’m just a ghost. --- Verse 3 Friends start leanin', always in need, I became their fix, supplyin' the weed. Thought they cared, but it’s just routine, Keepin' them hooked, trapped in the scene. Family dinners, starin' at plates, Smilin' wide but inside I break. They don’t see the weight I bear, Christmas haze, it’s all I wear. --- Verse 4 Now I’m alone, just me and the green, Lost in the frost, in places unseen. Weed’s my anchor, keeps me sane, While the world spins round in the snow and rain. Lookin' back, I see the loss, Every high came with a cost. My only friend, this mist I breathe, In a world of frost, it’s all I believe. --- Refrain Under the Christmas haze, life got cold, Lost in the smoke, stories untold. Friends came and went, but the weed stayed close, In the North Pole nights, I’m just a ghost. --- Outro So here I am, under the snow, Christmas haze, it’s all I know. Once was laughter, now it’s chains, In the frostbound nights, I bear the stains.