[Intro] Alright, Ima be honest [Verse 1] Fuck! I don't even wanna say these words Sorry for cussin But I feel like I have done all this for nothin I've been back on the drink Till I get so buzzed out I can't think I aint acted on it, But I lust after other women Yea, life gave me some lemons An I dont know what to do God had the love to pursue Me once apon a time What if I call out an he don't answer? What if I done crossed that line What if I wake up tomorrow an he gives me cancer I'd probably deserve it He gave me purpose An I spat in his face Rappin about my love for grace When I yearn for his mercy But I still do all those things that hurt me I don't know how my wife looks at me I wish I could see what she see's I don't have the nerve to pray these days Cuz I am goin back to my wicked ways Peter said it right Why does my flesh betray my mind I feel defined By every set back I had ninety days sober The last few weeks thats all been over I listen to my own songs of when I was winnin Now the devils grinnin On the nights my room is spinnin [Chorus – Woman beautiful haunting vocals] “I’ve seen you drown beneath your own confessions, Beggin’ for peace inside your obsessions. You call it sin, I call it bleedin’, But I still hear your soul when it’s barely breathin’. “I’ve seen you drown beneath your own confessions, Beggin’ for peace inside your obsessions. You call it sin, I call it bleedin’, But I still hear your soul when it’s barely breathin’. Don’t you know I never left you all alone? Even when you curse my name, I call you home. [Verse 2] Fuck! Sorry I can't help but curse Anything else right now in this verse Would feel phony An say what you want but you aint gonna throw a rock to stone me Ima find my footing Even if it takes uprooting Every single I have ever known I wanna know you God! I'm fighting every demon I've ever known Sorry for forgetting every lesson you ever shown ME, I dont know what happened Perhaps that's why I am askin What I am doing on repeat Like a song skippin the same ol' beat I have to be more Than stumbling drunk on the floor I still refuse to hate Even thought tonight ima sedate I WONT BREAK! I might lose the fight tonight But you still have my back. RIGHT?! I'm not talking just to talk I am scared to walk the walk I wont lie My tongue has doen enough of that A man of many masks but only a few hats [Chorus – Woman beautiful haunting vocals] “I’ve seen you drown beneath your own confessions, Beggin’ for peace inside your obsessions. You call it sin, I call it bleedin’, But I still hear your soul when it’s barely breathin’. “I’ve seen you drown beneath your own confessions, Beggin’ for peace inside your obsessions. You call it sin, I call it bleedin’, But I still hear your soul when it’s barely breathin’. Don’t you know I never left you all alone? Even when you curse my name, I call you home. [Bridge] My Bible’s open but the words all melt to black, Maybe faith’s just the courage to crawl back. I pour my shame into the cup and drink it slow, Try to wash down everything I’ll never show. You said I’m saved, but I still shake, And if I never find the light again, I’ll still scream your name through the wind. Let the rain baptize what’s left of me, If redemption’s real, then let it be. [Chorus – Woman beautiful haunting vocals] “I’ve seen you drown beneath your own confessions, Beggin’ for peace inside your obsessions. You call it sin, I call it bleedin’, But I still hear your soul when it’s barely breathin’. “I’ve seen you drown beneath your own confessions, Beggin’ for peace inside your obsessions. You call it sin, I call it bleedin’, But I still hear your soul when it’s barely breathin’. Don’t you know I never left you all alone? Even when you curse my name, I call you home.
