[Intro] (Vinyl crackle) Every time I go back... I feel the pain. Still... I go back. [Verse 1] Every time I go back I feel the pain. So I fall harder. Each time I'm done... I come... Only to feel guilt And blame For falling farther... And farther. I wish I would've erased Your name. Your number. That little piece of paper. Instead... I starred it. Dialed it. Planned another conversation... With nothing but Sexual intentions. Called her. Never even asked Her favorite color. Just juvenile thoughts. Back that ass up. Tag... You're it. Stress flexin' Like I got rubber-band stacks Just to see her smile. More non-truths. More empty promises. More legs spread. More temporary peace. Hold me... For a while. Lick her toes. Steal a kiss. She'd even play with my... ... God damn. [Pre-Chorus] I need another hit... Another... This must be love I'm feeling. Without a rubber. Without recovery. [Hook] I need another hit... And another... Tell myself I'm done... Then I call her. Every time I leave... I fall a little farther. Thought it was love... But it only made me darker. I need another hit... And another... Round and round we go... Why do I bother? Every time I leave... I fall a little farther. Thought it was love... But it only made me darker. [Verse 2] Toxic dependence. Built upon Insecure resentment. The power of the pussy... Became the incentive. Not because She forced me. Because I surrendered. Pleasure... Started making decisions My heart never would've made. One more night. One more lie. One more promise To myself... Broken before sunrise. No more friendships. No more family. No more real relationships. Just... The addiction. Of this bitch. And whatever... This was. I kept calling it love. Love kept calling it... Something else. [Bridge] Funny... How addiction Can wear perfume. Funny... How loneliness Can sound like desire. Funny... How the thing That makes you feel alive... Can quietly Kill the man You wanted to become. [FINAL HOOK] I need another hit... And another... Tell myself I'm done... Then I call her. Every time I leave... I fall a little farther. Thought it was love... But it only made me darker. Round and round... Again... And again... Until... I finally stopped calling. [Outro] Sixteen years. That's why... She's my ex. (Vinyl fades.)
