[Verse 1] I really need you to listen, I really need my friend ’Cause I put thousands on our future, betting on the end I’m carrying the weight of our life, every deadline, every file Talking to the tribe and the county, walking clients every mile Walking you through every signature, every little line you sign While every hour that I spend on OUR life steals from mine I’m not earning while I’m working, but I chose this, I’m all in I’m giving everything I have and you say I’m just too much again [Verse 2] You call me charged, too intense, too emotional to trust Like the verdict on my effort is I’m drama, I’m too much But I’m not charged, I’m exhausted, and I’m starting to lose hope I am drowning here in good faith, trying not to let go Each thing alone is nothing, I keep saying, “it’s okay” A forgotten wallet, missing check, wrong number on what we pay Documents I’ve sent three times, you still ask me where they are Then you stack them like a wall, throw one brick and ask why I fall apart [Chorus] I’m DROWNING in good faith, and you say I’m overblown You love how I hold us together, but you won’t hold your own I’m DROWNING in good faith, and you call it attitude You see my raised voice, not the weight that I’ve been carrying for two I’m DROWNING in good faith, I’m starting to feel hopeless I’m begging you to see the truth beneath the way I lose my focus I’m DROWNING in good faith, I’m not asking you for pity I just need my friend to hear me, not to turn me to the villain in your story [Verse 3] The second that I push back, try to say how this feels wrong You cut in with “that was rude” or “let me finish, you talked too long” And it doesn’t just pause my thinking, it erases the whole thread My argument just crashes, and I’m silent in my head Then I look flustered, overpowered, like you won because I’m weak But you didn’t win that moment, my brain just lost the speech Most of every single fight goes to policing how I sound Trying to keep my tone so gentle that you’ll let my words come out [Verse 4] “I feel” statements, counting breaths, walking careful through each phrase By the time it’s safe to say it, the substance has been shaved away I spend everything on wrapping so the gift won’t make you mad By the time you nod you’re fine, the point I had is gone, it’s just gone, it’s just gone You love that I’m squared away, that I handle everything you drop You love my strength and steady spine until that strength tells you to stop Then I’m rude, I’m changed, too direct, I’m the storm you never knew When the only thing that’s different is I finally disagree with you [Chorus] I’m DROWNING in good faith, and you say I’m overblown You love how I hold us together, but you won’t hold your own I’m DROWNING in good faith, and you call it attitude You see my raised voice, not the weight that I’ve been carrying for two I’m DROWNING in good faith, I’m starting to feel hopeless I’m begging you to see the truth beneath the way I lose my focus I’m DROWNING in good faith, I’m not asking you for pity I just need my friend to hear me, not to turn me to the villain in your story [Verse 5] I’m in therapy, I’m learning, I’ve been changing how I speak I stopped cutting in, I wait my turn even when it costs me what I think I built my days around your boundaries, shifted how I move through time What more does growth have to look like before you stop calling me the crime? I’m not asking to yell freely, not demanding I get mean I don’t want you to excuse me when I’m careless or I’m keen I just want the thing beneath it, the message underneath the storm To be heard without you acting like my feelings are the harm [Verse 6] ’Cause I refuse to keep on carrying everybody’s weight but mine Then be told the problem’s posture, not the boxes I’m assigned You see my shaking hands and think I’m just dramatic, overdone But you don’t see all the filings, all the calls I’ve already run Every hour that I pour in is a debt I can’t recoup But I spend it on our future like it’s sacred, like it’s truth I’m not asking you to praise me, I’m just asking you to see That the story in your head of me is not the one I’m living in with me [Bridge] Every time the friction hits, it’s easier to walk away Than to fight to be interpreted in a kinder, truer way Fear of being dismissed keeps me quiet, keeps me small I hide deeper in the background while I handle it all The system of our love right now is grinding down my heart And I’m trying, really trying, not to let it tear apart Please don’t break me while I’m building, while I’m holding up this bridge I don’t need a pass or pity, just a partner at this ridge [Chorus] I’m DROWNING in good faith, and you say I’m overblown You love how I hold us together, but you won’t hold your own I’m DROWNING in good faith, and you call it attitude You see my raised voice, not the weight that I’ve been carrying for two I’m DROWNING in good faith, I’m starting to feel hopeless I’m begging you to see the truth beneath..
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