Glass Behind My Eyes by BoopMachine

[Verse 1]
I wake in a room I know
but it feels like a borrowed name
My hands move slow in the mirror
like they came from another frame

I hear your mouth move near me
but the words hit far away
I nod like I caught the meaning
I’m gone before you say

It starts small, like a curtain
a fog on the glass in my head
Then the floor gets farther from me
and the whole damn room turns dead

I’m right there and not there
same face, different day
And you keep asking, “You okay?”
I say, “Yeah,” then slip away

[Pre-Chorus]
My pulse gets loud in my ears
My skin feels borrowed, thin
The world goes dim at the edges
and I fall through it again

[Chorus]
I disappear
I disappear (disappear)
Right in the room
but never here

I disappear
I disappear (disappear)
You call my name
I only fear

[Verse 2]
It can look like I don’t care
like I’m cold, like I’m checked out
But I’m fighting for the thread
that keeps me tethered to the now

Sometimes I lose hours
like they got cut from the tape
Then I look at all your messages
and feel sick at what I made

You think I’m ignoring you
or hiding some sharp little lie
But dissociation is a break in the bridge
not a choice to let you die

I miss the joke, the warning
the look that said “stay close”
And later I’m wrecked with guilt
for the hurt I didn’t chose

[Pre-Chorus]
My pulse gets loud in my ears
My skin feels borrowed, thin
The world goes dim at the edges
and I fall through it again

[Chorus]
I disappear
I disappear (disappear)
Right in the room
but never here

I disappear
I disappear (disappear)
You call my name
I only fear

[Bridge]
If I go still, don’t take it personal
If I stare past you, I’m not proud
I’m trying to come back to my body
while the dark keeps pulling me down

Breathe with me
slow and plain (breathe with me)
Say my name
and say it again

I’m not gone
I’m just split
trying to find
where I fit

[Final Chorus]
I disappear
I disappear (disappear)
Right in the room
but never here

I disappear
I disappear (disappear)
Hold my hand
and pull me near

I disappear
I disappear (disappear)
I come back bruised
but I’m still here

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[Verse 1] I wake in a room I know but it feels like a borrowed name My hands move slow in the mirror like they came from another frame I hear your mouth move near me but the words hit far away I nod like I caught the meaning I’m gone before you say It starts small, like a curtain a fog on the glass in my head Then the floor gets farther from me and the whole damn room turns dead I’m right there and not there same face, different day And you keep asking, “You okay?” I say, “Yeah,” then slip away [Pre-Chorus] My pulse gets loud in my ears My skin feels borrowed, thin The world goes dim at the edges and I fall through it again [Chorus] I disappear I disappear (disappear) Right in the room but never here I disappear I disappear (disappear) You call my name I only fear [Verse 2] It can look like I don’t care like I’m cold, like I’m checked out But I’m fighting for the thread that keeps me tethered to the now Sometimes I lose hours like they got cut from the tape Then I look at all your messages and feel sick at what I made You think I’m ignoring you or hiding some sharp little lie But dissociation is a break in the bridge not a choice to let you die I miss the joke, the warning the look that said “stay close” And later I’m wrecked with guilt for the hurt I didn’t chose [Pre-Chorus] My pulse gets loud in my ears My skin feels borrowed, thin The world goes dim at the edges and I fall through it again [Chorus] I disappear I disappear (disappear) Right in the room but never here I disappear I disappear (disappear) You call my name I only fear [Bridge] If I go still, don’t take it personal If I stare past you, I’m not proud I’m trying to come back to my body while the dark keeps pulling me down Breathe with me slow and plain (breathe with me) Say my name and say it again I’m not gone I’m just split trying to find where I fit [Final Chorus] I disappear I disappear (disappear) Right in the room but never here I disappear I disappear (disappear) Hold my hand and pull me near I disappear I disappear (disappear) I come back bruised but I’m still here

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