"I can't stop blinking"
"I can't stop blinking because if I close my eyes, I see what I did. If I keep them open, I see what's left." "Everything I try to love turns out to be me. And I hate me." "I sleep under the weight of names I gave up. Stare into the fridge just to remember hunger. Pour pills into my hand, then count how many would leave me just sick enough to get caught." "Do you want the truth? I don't feel anything when I cry anymore. I just like the way it keeps people from asking why I don't." "You're not like them, are you?" "I've been clean for eight days but I still keep the bag in the bottom of the drawer under the socks I never wear just in case I want to lose again on purpose." "Some people grow. I molt. And every time I shed, I'm uglier." "Pain is the only thing that doesnβt lie. Thatβs how I know Iβm still real." "Thatβs how I know Iβm still here."
