Got a lot on my mind Life keep movin forward, but I keep fallin behind And in my mind I am tortured by the unavoidable Every single day life feels unenjoyable And my screams become inaudible When the undecidable feels unforgivable My conscience feels less credible Slippin through the cracks, an abscondence to dreams Avoiding time and the physical space Just to escape the rawness of continuing routines Avoiding eye contact, avoiding the look on your face I just need a second to breathe But the weight keeps on buildin On my chest and I struggle to get free Tryin to shake off the panic, hopin God is willing Got a shadow on my shadow and it's followin my step Countin all the promises I made that I ain't kept Tryin to hold it all together while the edges start to fray Lookin in the mirror watchin who I used to be decay It's like I'm runnin on a treadmill But the speed keeps gettin higher And I'm tired but I can't stop 'Cause the floor behind me's fire And I smile when they ask me Say "I'm good," but it's a lie Got a storm behind my eyelids And I'm scared of what I'll find If I sit with it a minute If I let it in my chest So I keep on movin faster And I never get no rest Every footstep heavy, like I'm walkin through mud Feel the pressure in my temples and the rush in my blood Tryin to outrun a monster that's livin in my head If I stop for a second I'm as good as dead Got the mask pulled tight so they never see the cracks Put my hands in my pockets, try to cover up the tracks They say "take it one day," but the days feel long And I'm hummin to the rhythm of a broken song Yeah, I fake another laugh just to keep 'em all at ease While I'm down on the inside, beggin on my knees Got a closet full of stress that I try to keep locked Every time I try to talk, man, the words get blocked Exhausted from the act, tired of playin a role Tryin to fix the outside while I'm bleedin in my soul It's like I'm runnin on a treadmill But the speed keeps gettin higher And I'm tired but I can't stop 'Cause the floor behind me's fire And I smile when they ask me Say "I'm good," but it's a lie Got a storm behind my eyelids And I'm scared of what I'll find If I sit with it a minute If I let it in my chest So I keep on movin faster And I never get no rest And the prayers feel like a language That I used to know by heart Now I'm searchin for the words But the words all fell apart Yeah, I used to speak it fluent, used to know right where to stand Now I'm reachin for the ceiling with a tremble in my hand Whisperin in silence, waitin for a spark Searchin for a light switch somewhere in the dark And I'm callin out to heaven From the bottom of a hole Just a man who lost the map Tryin to find his way back home Yeah... just a man who lost the map Tryin to find his way back home.
