SOMNAMBULANT 2 / Vaelith Mourne

[Intro,Whispered Female Contralto,Shaken,Female Throat Singing,Dark Sitar] What did I say? The words remain Hanging in the air Long after my eyes opened Vyre... I love you. I cannot return them to silence. [Verse 1,Fragile,Intimate Female Contralto] I stand motionless beneath the cypress Rain still trembling on my skin For the first time through these endless nights I fear the truth I carried within Not because the love is shameful Not because I wish it gone But because I spent so many years Teaching myself to carry on I stood aside when you chose Lunareth Because your happiness came first I never wanted what was hers Never wished your bond reversed Yet somewhere underneath my silence Something faithful still remained And sleeping stripped away the walls That kept me from speaking its name [Pre-Chorus,Rising,Female Throat Singing,Sitar] I said it I heard it There's nowhere left to hide The truth I kept protected Has finally stepped outside No anger No envy No wish to change your life Only something I kept buried Still burning quietly inside [Chorus,Powerful Female Contralto,Layered Female Throat Singing] SOMNAMBULANT Now the sleeping truth is known SOMNAMBULANT I cannot make the words unknown I can silence every waking thought And guard what I reveal But somewhere underneath my sleep My heart remembers what I feel SOMNAMBULANT Another wall has fallen through I never stopped I never could I still love you [Female Throat Singing,Deep,Ritualistic,Wordless,Sitar] [Verse 2,Emotional,Close-Mic Female Contralto] Love was never ownership Never something you should owe I could love you from the distance And still willingly let go I could watch you build tomorrow With the woman that you chose And protect the joy between you While nobody ever knows But letting go of expectation Never emptied out my heart Standing quietly beside you Never meant we grew apart I remain your loyal sister I remain what I have been But now another hidden doorway Has opened from within [Pre-Chorus,Haunting,Female Throat Singing] The night heard everything The water knows The truth escaped me And now it grows I cannot bury What sleep revealed Another fracture Will not be sealed [Chorus,Massive,Overtone Female Throat Singing,Sitar] SOMNAMBULANT Now the sleeping truth is known SOMNAMBULANT I have carried it alone Through the fog Through the water Through the years I stood aside I never asked you for your heart I only guarded mine inside SOMNAMBULANT Another piece has broken through The deeper that I wander The more I remember you [Bridge,Spoken Then Rising,Raw Female Contralto] You are my sister. You are my family. You are the love I never asked you to return. I stood aside Because I loved you enough To let you choose. And I would choose your happiness Again. And again. And again. But standing aside Was never leaving. Silence Was never forgetting. And loving you without possession Never meant I loved you less. [Female Throat Singing,Raw,Rising,Sitar Crescendo] [Verse 3,Darkening,Determined Female Contralto] So I place one foot before me And the wandering starts again Though exhaustion clouds my vision Though I cannot see the end Something deeper keeps me moving Something I no longer fight Every instinct tells me find you Before something ends tonight I don't know what waits beyond me I don't know what I will find But your presence keeps returning Like a hand against my mind If the sleeping part can find you When the waking part grows weak Then let every dream become a road Until I reach the one I seek [Final Chorus,Monumental,Layered Female Throat Singing,Soaring Sitar] SOMNAMBULANT Let the waking world dissolve SOMNAMBULANT Still my loyalty resolves Every mile removes another Stone from walls I thought would stand Every night reveals another Truth I cannot reprimand SOMNAMBULANT I know what sleep has proven true I can honor every choice you made And still forever love you SOMNAMBULANT If my eyes must close again Let my feet remember where My waking strength may end I will follow I will find you I will cross the endless night Vyre... Hold on. I'm coming. [Outro,Whispered,Exhausted,Fading Female Throat Singing,Sitar] I said the words. I cannot take them back. I don't want to. Another wall has fallen. Another piece of me Has unraveled. And still... I walk.