•To Many Thoughts•

Too many thoughts. Too many thoughts. Did I remember that? What if I forgot something? What was I doing? I can’t switch it off. My head is full But there’s nowhere to put it Every thought comes knocking And I can’t say “fuck it” One thought becomes two Two become ten Then I’m back in the morning Doing it all again Something I said Something I didn’t Something I should Something I shouldn’t A conversation from yesterday Playing again in my head While tomorrow’s already shouting Everything I haven’t done yet Did you lock it? Did you send it? Did you remember? What if? What if? What if? STATIC REBELLION GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD STATIC REBELLION THOUSAND THOUGHTS I NEVER SAID STATIC REBELLION ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND THEY GO I’M TRYING TO TURN IT DOWN BUT MY BRAIN SAYS NO I’ve got a filing cabinet With no fucking drawers A thousand little questions And a thousand little doors Every memory’s open Every tab is alive One part of me is sleeping While another’s on fire I think about the future Then I think about the past Then I question every second That I thought was going fast I make myself a promise That tonight I’ll let it go Let it go. Let it go. Let it go. But my brain says— NO. Thoughts on thoughts On thoughts on thoughts Little sparks That never stop One disappears Another starts There’s no beginning There’s no end Breathe… I’m trying. Did I lock the door? Why did I say that? What happens next? Should I have— Remember that thing— What if— Don’t forget— Have you checked— You need to— What time is it? That’s what it sounds like. Inside my head. STATIC REBELLION GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD STATIC REBELLION THOUSAND THOUGHTS I NEVER SAID STATIC REBELLION ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND THEY GO I’M TRYING TO TURN IT DOWN BUT MY BRAIN SAYS NO I don’t need another answer I need somewhere to put the questions I don’t need another warning I need somewhere to put the tension I don’t need another window I’ve already got too many open I don’t need another thought I’ve got enough of them fucking floating And that’s the funny thing. Sometimes… The loudest thing in the room… …is me. Think. Think. Think. STOP. Think. Slow down… Slow down… Slow down… I don’t know how. You don’t have to know. Maybe I don’t need To empty my head. Maybe I just need To stop believing Every thought deserves an answer. STATIC REBELLION GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD STATIC REBELLION ALL THE THINGS I NEVER SAID STATIC REBELLION ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND THEY GO I’M NOT TRYING TO KILL THE NOISE I’M JUST LEARNING HOW TO LET IT FLOW LET IT FLOW LET IT FLOW LET IT FLOW STATIC REBELLION. One thought. Then another. Then another. Maybe Tomorrow STATIC REBELLION GOING ON INSIDE MY HEAD STATIC REBELLION ALL THE THINGS I NEVER SAID STATIC REBELLION ROUND AND ROUND AND ROUND THEY GO I’M NOT TRYING TO KILL THE NOISE I’M JUST LEARNING HOW TO LET IT FLOW LET IT FLOW LET IT FLOW LET IT FLOW STATIC REBELLION. One thought. Then another. Then another. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe yesterday. Maybe now. You can leave that one.