Am I Daddy's Girl?

[intro whisper falsetto over looming low fuzz drone heartbeat pulse electric 70s resonant lead swell feedback growl half time 65 bpm] I left while she washed the knives Didn’t take shoes no goodbyes Drenched and running in roaring rush I didn’t stop 'til the trees turned to rust I couldn’t say what pulsed in my mind Midnight clouds edged bright in moonlight Whispered plans I was sharper than glass And I hungered—spurred by evening's scent and caress [chorus explosive chestbelt octave leaps harmony electric 70s resonant twin leads wailing sustain bends divebomb talkbox double time 170 bpm] Am I still Daddy’s girl if I run If I leave her behind with the locks undone If I vanish through alleys and lose who I was To save her from what I might become The city don’t see me the shadows don’t care But at least she’s not bleeding at least she’s not scared [verse 2 confessional speak sing to airy midrange electric 70s resonant low gain palm mute groove hip hop swing 95 bpm] Sometimes I'd pretend it wasn’t there The hunger the heat the split in the air But he’s in me— In the way my jaw clenches when I lie In the way I breathe when I want to cry Mama saw it once—I swear she did Paused with the laundry like I was him And I couldn’t bear her loving less So I left in silence left the mess [bridge lullaby alto to sigh falsetto building into rasp electric 70s resonant slide echo surf doom halftime 105 bpm strings swell break] I ran from our garden from warm wooden spoons From lullabies thick with the taste of June The good kind of prison the gentle kind Where love kept me small and safely blind But Eden had chains I didn’t earn And I felt them snap with hungers yearn So I tore through the dusk left the apple behind And prayed she’d forget that we were tied [guitar solo electric 70s resonant cathedral reverb legato shred octave tap bends sustain feedback crescendo] [verse 3 whisper childlike then soaring siren belt electric 70s resonant phaser tremolo industrial blues swing 115 bpm] I look in the mirror sometimes and wonder Are my eyes more yellow gold than yesterday The streetlight hits them wrong or maybe right And something wrong within leads me astray I smile too slow I stare too long I trace my canines with my tongue I tell myself it’s imagination As I try recalling when it all began [refrain chant growl layered with clean belt electric 70s resonant harmonised twin leads tribal tom build accelerating 120 to 150 bpm] He rises within a hunger slow Lifes breath held deep as I walk alone Didn’t raise me but he wakes in me A growl that grows deep in my throat He rides within no room to breathe His hands now mine yet I try not to believe Didn’t raise me but he owns my skin And where do I end where does he begin [outro exhausted soft chestvoice descending to breathy whisper electric 70s resonant slow bend feedback fade dirge 70 bpm] He rides within and he was ridden too By the thing that cracked father in two Mama once flinched when I laughed too wide I think she knew what I had inside We’re born to be ridden—bit and skin So pray I’m the last who’ll carry him And if you hear me whisper outside Don't give in...