[INTRO — QUIET, CONFESSIONAL] Yeah… This ain't your fault. This ain't your fight. It's mine. A war inside my head that I'm trying to win every night. [VERSE 1] I'm always in the mood, yeah, that's just how I am, Got a thousand thoughts running through my head again, Always wanting closeness, always wanting you near, But I keep it all inside, even when the pressure appears. I know you're not that type, and I respect that the most, I ain't trying to change you, that's something I won't, If you're not ready, then I'm waiting, that's the deal, 'Cause I never want to push you into something you don't feel. I want the hugs, want the kisses, want the closeness too, Want everything that comes with being next to you, But I'd rather hold it in than ever make you feel forced, 'Cause loving you means respecting what you want. [PRE-HOOK] So I fight, fight, fight, Every fucking night, Keep the war inside my head, Keep my hands tied. I could never betray you, That's not who I am, Even when my mind gets loud, I'm still standing where I stand. [HOOK] I'm always in the mood, But I'm fighting it for you, Trying to keep it all inside, Like I promised I would do. I want you all the time, From my heart to my core, But I'd rather wait forever Than push you into more. I'm always in the mood, Yeah, this war is mine, I'm trying to be a better man One fucking day at a time. [VERSE 2 — FAST RAP] I know I've fucked up, I know I've made mistakes, I know I've got some shit inside that I still gotta face, I'm insecure as hell, questioning everything I do, Wondering if I'm good enough, wondering if I'm enough for you. Every little thought can turn into a storm, Every little doubt makes me question who I am, But I'm trying to rebuild, trying to get it right, Trying to become a better man, not just survive the night. I don't wanna lose you, that's the fear in my chest, That's the reason that I'm giving everything my best, I don't wanna fuck this up, don't wanna go back, Don't wanna be the same man who made those mistakes in the past. So when my head gets loud, I swallow every word, When my body wants closeness, I remember what I heard, I give you your space, even when I'm craving mine, 'Cause I'd rather wait with you than cross a fucking line. [HOOK] I'm always in the mood, But I'm fighting it for you, Trying to keep it all inside, Like I promised I would do. I want you all the time, From my heart to my core, But I'd rather wait forever Than push you into more. I'm always in the mood, Yeah, this war is mine, I'm trying to be a better man One fucking day at a time. [VERSE 3 — RAW RAP] I ain't perfect, never claimed that I was, I've got demons in my head and I've carried too much, Sometimes I hate myself for the things that I've done, But I'm still trying to change, still trying to become. Better than I was, better than I am, Better than the man who first reached for your hand, Not because I'm ashamed of the man you knew, But because I know there's more that I can do. And if I want your arms, I'll wait for your sign, If I want your kiss, I'll wait for the right time, If I want more, I'll keep that feeling contained, 'Cause your boundaries matter more than the pressure in my brain. I ain't looking elsewhere, I ain't breaking that trust, I don't want another person, I don't need another touch, I chose you, and I still choose you every day, Even when my fucking mind tries to get in the way. [BRIDGE — SLOW] This is my war. Not yours. These are my thoughts. Not your responsibility. I'm learning to breathe. Learning to wait. Learning to be better. Because I don't want to lose you. [FINAL HOOK — EMOTIONAL, POWERFUL] I'm always in the mood, But I'm fighting it for you, Trying to keep it all inside, Like I promised I would do. I want you all the time, From my heart to my core, But I'd rather wait forever Than push you into more. I'm always in the mood, Yeah, this war is mine, I'm trying to be a better man One fucking day at a time. [OUTRO — QUIET] I don't need you to change. I need to change what I do with what's inside me. I'm still fighting. Still learning. Still trying. And I don't wanna lose you.
