[Intro] Soul... [Verse 1] God, what the fuck did You make this world for? What's the point of being born if we're just keeping score? Everybody's got a wound that they don't talk about, Everybody says they're fine till the truth comes out. I took something I shouldn't have, now I'm scared of the result, Funny how I played it careless, now I'm praying for a pulse Of normal life, a normal night, a chance to take it back, I was trying to quiet my head, I never planned for that. And I don't know if You can hear me, I don't know if You exist, But I've got questions piling up and I can't keep ignoring it. Why'd You give us hearts that break, then tell us we should heal? Why's the world so fucking cruel? Tell me, God, is any of this real? I'm not asking You to save me just so I can do no wrong, I'm just asking why it took this long to admit that something's wrong. I spent years acting fearless, like the end was just a joke, Now I'm frightened by the thought that I might never get back home. [Chorus] Whatever happens, happens— That's what everybody says, Like it's easy to accept it When you're scared you'll see no next day. Whatever happens, happens— God, I don't know what that means. I'm not brave, I'm not at peace, I'm just scared of what this is. If I'm dying, I ain't ready, I've got things I haven't done. I got people I owe words to, I got days I should've won. Whatever happens, happens... But I wish this wasn't happening. [Verse 2] I don't want a fucking sermon, I don't need another quote, Don't tell me everything's a blessing when I'm struggling just to cope. Don't tell me that there's purpose in the pain I put me through, I don't know what I believe, but I'm trying to talk to You. I got people I was cold to, got apologies unsaid, Got a future I kept pushing to some other day instead. I thought I had more time here, never questioned how much left, Now I'm staring at the choices I made thinking I knew best. And I'm angry, yeah, I'm angry, I got reasons I can't hide, At the people who abandoned me, at me for all the lies, At a world that keeps on turning when somebody's world falls through, At the fact I'm asking God for help when I don't know if I believe in You. If You made us, why's it like this? Why's there suffering at all? Why do people have to lose so much Before somebody hears their call? I don't need You to explain it Like You owe me every fact, I just wish I understood this Before I couldn't take it back. [Chorus] Whatever happens, happens— That's what everybody says, Like it's easy to accept it When you're scared you'll see no next day. Whatever happens, happens— God, I don't know what that means. I'm not brave, I'm not at peace, I'm just scared of what this is. If I'm dying, I ain't ready, I've got things I haven't done. I got people I owe words to, I got days I should've won. Whatever happens, happens... But I wish this wasn't happening. [Bridge] God, I'm scared. There, I said it. No tough act, no disguise. I don't want to be a lesson Or a name somebody cries. I don't want them saying, "He had demons," Like that explains the whole damn thing. I was more than my worst decision, More than all the hurt I bring. I don't know if I deserve forgiveness, I don't know what comes after this. I just know I didn't think one night Could ever come to this. [Outro] Whatever happens, happens... I don't want this to be it. I'm scared. I'm sorry. I don't know what happens next.
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