Heavier Than Gold

I watched the ice give up before I did It cracked like truth I never wanna live with That name on my back don’t wash off clean It cuts deeper than this old routine I got dust in my boots, blame in my veins Every mile I ran just circled the same There’s a medal on me, cold as the night But it don’t say I won, it just says I survived And the bar light flickers like it knows my past Every sip gets heavier than the last Cross on my shoulders, heavier than gold Can’t outrun a name that’s already told Ice in my whiskey, melting too fast That’s the sound of a man who ain’t going back Cross on my shoulders, I carry it home Even when I don’t wanna be alone There’s a porch light somewhere calling my sins But I ain’t been the man that could walk back in Got a key in my pocket, rust in my chest And a past that don’t care if I do my best Every road sign’s pointing where I won’t go Every truth’s something I already know Cross on my shoulders, heavier than gold Can’t outrun a name that’s already told Ice in my whiskey, melting too fast That’s the sound of a man who ain’t going back Cross on my shoulders, I carry it home Even when I don’t wanna be alone There’s a moment when the cold turns thin When the silence finally settles in Where the drink goes warm, and the nerve runs dry And you realize you’ve been saying goodbye Cross on my shoulders, heavier than gold Can’t outrun a name that’s already told Ice in my whiskey, melting too fast That’s the sound of a man who ain’t going back Cross on my shoulders, I carry it home Even when I don’t wanna be alone Guess a name ain’t something you choose or lose It’s the weight you learn how to refuse And maybe home ain’t a place or a door It’s the truth you stop running from anymore