And then you were gone

Come in truly from my heart, the void hearts just weeks before you told me that you never wanna lose me and yet you forced me to lose you you understood me in such a way that nobody Could even understand who I was you embraced my Shay and my Bernard ha ha ha you spoke my love language, but I wouldn’t allow you to. I would tell you no comment and go on with the next subject because I wasn’t ready to love you, but more or less I wasn’t ready to miss you Which made me realize I always did love you. I was just in a different way. I guess in this life, we weren’t allowed to be that physical type of love. I was strictly a soulful type of love which never got tainted in the little time that we knew each other But how are you the most profound love that have encountered when I only knew you for five months and now I’m missing you for four Jace why did you leave? Why why do I sit in the darkness and speak to you through my songs I wrote a whole album about you About how much I miss you. I cry every day and sometimes it comes out as anger as the F word sometimes it comes out with fire in my eyes instead of tears, and sometimes it comes out and anxiety. I’m trying so hard to heal, trying so hard to do my shadow work and take accountability For everything. I’m sad bro. It hurts like I can’t even be a good friend a good mom a good family member everybody’s graduating but I don’t even wanna go. I don’t wanna be in crowds right now. I just wanna cry. Oh my God I can’t even believe you’re gone. I see 111222333444555. I’ll see ya Crow every day except for when I was in Maui, but maybe there’s no crows out there but I still feel too. You keep coming to me in my dreams the day you died I never told you, but I had a dream about you. I won’t tell it in this song it’s not appropriate. I almost told you, but then I didn’t feel like those texts were you so I started to text it and then I erased it and then you were gone