“Neon Benediction”

“Neon Benediction” You didn’t flinch when the daylight bled Through the slats of a crooked blind Just let it settle where we’d been laid Like it knew what it’d find Your boot heel hooked on the edge of the sheet, Like you never planned to go And the way you leaned back into me… Said more than you’d let show We don’t say what we carried out We just feel what it left behind You got me caught in the neon after Where the burn don’t fade with the night Every second pulling me faster Into something that feels like right Is it mercy in how you take Without ever taking too much? All I know is I start to break… Every time I fall in your touch Ashtray full and the window cracked, Smoke still writing what we won’t There’s a rhythm in how you lean back Like you know that I won’t And the small one curled at the foot of the bed, Like she guards what we don’t explain There’s a quiet in everything left unsaid Like we’d only cheapen it with a name You don’t ask me what it means... You just make it feel like it don’t need one You got me caught in the neon after Where the line ain’t where it was Every touch digging in a little deeper Like I don’t question just because Is it healing or just the way You don’t leave when you should? All I know is I wanna stay… Longer than I said I would There’s a moment I almost pull back Like I’ve done a thousand times But you close it without all that... Just a look… and I’m crossing lines Every rule I was holding tight Starts to slip in the way you stay And I don’t even need to fight… I just don’t wanna turn away Leave the light where it barely shows… Let it hang in the smoke like this… If I’m shaking, it’s not from cold… It’s just something I can’t resist You got me caught in the neon after Where the past don’t follow me in Every breath feels a little softer Like I don’t have to wear it again Is it love or the way you hold Without making me choose? All I know is I’m not as cold… As the man I used to use Now the smoke sits low in the room… Like it’s got somewhere to stay… And I don’t know if I’m holding you… Or just something you gave away