I kept saying I didn’t know what happened to me. That was a lie. I remember. I REMEMBER WHO I WAS I REMEMBER WHAT IT COST I REMEMBER WHAT I DID I REMEMBER WHY I HID I was not gentle I was not kind I was not lost I was buying time I knew the damage I knew the sound I knew who I hurt when I burned out DON’T TRY MAKE ME CLEAN DON’T TRY MAKE ME SAFE DON’T CALL IT PAIN WHEN IT WAS A FUCKING CHOICE WHO WAS I? THE ONE WHO KNEW WHAT DID I DO? I MADE IT TRUE WHO WAS I? THE ONE WHO STAYED WHEN I COULD HAVE WALKED I LOOKED AWAY I said I was pushed I said I was tired I said I was young I said I was wired No. I was there. I was able. I saw the end and set the table. I CAN’T KEEP LYING LIKE MY MEMORY FAILED I CAN’T KEEP CALLING MYSELF THE VICTIM There’s no stranger in this one. No horrible dream. No mmissingthing. Just me. I REMEMBER THE LOOK I REMEMBER THE CALL I REMEMBER THE PART WHERE I DID NOTHING AT ALL NOTHING AT ALL I REMEMBER THE TIME I REMEMBER THE PLACE I REMEMBER THE WAY I KEPT MYSELF SAFE I don’t want forgiveness I want the truth to stop changing shape when I need it to. SAY IT PLAIN I KNEW SAY IT AGAIN I KNEW NO MORE HIDING I KNEW I KNEW I KNEW I KNEW I REMEMBER WHO I WAS NOT THE STORY NOT THE COVER I REMEMBER WHO I WAS NOT THE BROKEN NOT THE OTHER I REMEMBER WHO I WAS THE ONE WHO SAW THE ONE WHO CHOSE I REMEMBER WHO I WAS AND NOW EVERYBODY KNOWS I didn’t forget. I just waited.
