“I STILL CRIED” Performed Vocals Twelve Gauge Written by 12Gauge858 Twelve / 12Gauge858 Music Response to SILL-E — “WHAT IF DEATH IS JUST A DOOR?” Intro You asked me what if death is just a door... Maybe it is. But I was standing on this side of it. [Verse 1] I learned goodbye ain’t always something somebody gets to say Sometimes the room just changes and nothing ever feels the same Sometimes you still reach for the phone before your heart remembers why Sometimes you know where they went... and still ask God— why? I’ve heard people say “They’re somewhere better now” And I believe ’em But there are nights “somewhere better” still feels too far away When all I wanted was one more minute one more laugh one more ordinary day [Hook] If death is just a door I still cried when it closed Still stood there reaching for somebody I could no longer hold I know Jesus walked out of a grave I believe what He said But believing there is life beyond this life didn’t make this hurt less No... I still cried I still cried. [Verse 2 — cello enters underneath] Faith never told my hands they weren’t allowed to shake Never told my knees they had to hold me up when my whole world changed Never said “If you really trust God you won’t break down” It just gave me somewhere to take the pieces when they hit the ground So I talked to Him angry I talked to Him confused Some nights all I had was tears and He heard those too I stopped trying to make grief sound holy Stopped acting like missing you meant my faith was weak Sometimes trusting God looked like nothing more than crying until I fell asleep. [Hook If death is just a door I still cried when it closed Still turned around sometimes thinking I heard a voice I know I know Jesus walked out of a grave and because He did I have hope But hope and heartbreak can live in the same chest I know... because they live in mine I still cried Lord knows... I still cried. [Bridge Maybe death is a doorway Maybe one day I’ll understand why some people had to walk through it before I was ready to let go of their hand Maybe heaven answers questions earth never could But I don’t need every answer to know God is still good And I don’t have to pretend goodbye didn’t tear something out of me just to prove I believe Heaven don’t make me miss you less tonight. But the grave don’t get the final word. [silence] It doesn’t. [Final Hook — full emotional tenor, choir enters softly behind Twelve] So if death is just a door yeah... I still cried when it closed But I don’t stand beside that door believing that’s the end anymore I cried because I loved you not because I lost my faith And if these tears keep falling I’ll let Jesus catch every one Till the day there ain’t no distance between where you are and where I’m standing Till goodbye runs out of meaning Till grief has nothing left to say I still cried... and I still believe. I still cried... and I still believe. [Outro I ain’t saying I understand death. I ain’t saying knowing heaven is real makes an empty chair feel full. I ain’t saying I know what the room looks like. I just know who holds the key. [breath] And until He opens that door for me... I’m gonna miss you. I’m gonna love you. And some nights... I’m still gonna cry.
