I am soul

My words have to be positive because the way I’m feeling I feel a little cursed. I feel a little somebody put a spell on me so I bind it and I say these affirmations that I am I am my best. I am a mother. I am loved. I am whole. I am healed. I am strong. I am beautiful the way I feel is not the who I am. My hands are frozen. My heart kinda hurts. I caught a sharp pain. That’s just shoots down my left arm all the way to my wrist. My stomach feels curdled, but that is not who I am even though I feel it I feel a tinge of anxiety trying to take me over but again I am not the symptoms. I am the purity. I am the Grace. I am the unconditional love that I try to teach my kid. I tell my kid I’m sorry that I’m so grumpy today because it is not my soul that feels the pain. It is my body that feels this pain. My body feels like it’s crumbling as my mind speaks to itself and positivity and absolute unconditional. Love see I still love myself even though I feel this pain it’s just one of those days that I feel like I’m gonna faint. My blood pressure is low, but that is not who I am so leave me alone body. Let me be as I try to breathe through this trying to say only positive things because I gotta go pick up my kid and I don’t want her to see me like this tired of saying I have lupus and this is why I am me lupus isn’t me. I am a soul before I am a body 1 million times probably now I remember, and I also foresee, I see the betterment of the peace in this world look at everybody and I’m like what is wrong with everybody can everybody wake up or is this all a dream of somebody else’s coma? Are we just cast it into your dream or am I writing my own story because if I am, I’m a loving mother I have a beautiful family I have a beautiful life who am I? I am soul.