Five and Cursed Five years old, already praying for the end Mama slipped out, daddy cracked when he found out Back door slammed, left a hole in the couch Streets took the boy, turned his name into a route No big brother watching, just a .380 in the couch Mama chasing checks, daddy chasing her out I picked locks at nine, learned silence is the loudest Curse on the soul, started small but it grew loud Twelve in the alley trading nickels for a Glock Mama new man yelling, I just kept the block hot Dad sent letters, I ain't read 'em, just watched Rain hit my face, felt like heaven had forgot Sixteen with a case, judge gave me a cot Mama still cheating, daddy still lost I smile in the mirror just to practice what it's not Dark thoughts circle like a vulture on a lot Glock to the temple, finger itching on the trigger Kids in the next room, I can't pull it any quicker Six mouths to feed, but I'm the one who make it bitter They resilient, I'm the reason they shiver Oldest girl carry mama's fire, she don't wither Youngest boys wild, two calm like they got filters I would die for them today, still the one that hold 'em back Cursed since the cradle, every breath feel like an attack Lately I been thinking maybe leaving make it better Maybe they forget the nights I made 'em feel lesser Maybe they don't see the pain I keep under pressure Maybe they grow straight if I just write the final letter Cock it, drop it, let the rain decide the weather But the Glock feel heavy, and my hand won't let it settle Five years old, still inside me, asking why I met the Curse that won't leave, so I stay, and keep the metal.Five and Cursed Five years old, already praying for the end Mama slipped out, daddy cracked when he found out Back door slammed, left a hole in the couch Streets took the boy, turned his name into a route No big brother watching, just a .380 in the couch Mama chasing checks, daddy chasing her out I picked locks at nine, learned silence is the loudest Curse on the soul, started small but it grew loud Twelve in the alley trading nickels for a Glock Mama new man yelling, I just kept the block hot Dad sent letters, I ain't read 'em, just watched Rain hit my face, felt like heaven had forgot Sixteen with a case, judge gave me a cot Mama still cheating, daddy still lost I smile in the mirror just to practice what it's not Dark thoughts circle like a vulture on a lot Glock to the temple, finger itching on the trigger Kids in the next room, I can't pull it any quicker Six mouths to feed, but I'm the one who make it bitter They resilient, I'm the reason they shiver Oldest girl carry mama's fire, she don't wither Youngest boys wild, two calm like they got filters I would die for them today, still the one that hold 'em back Cursed since the cradle, every breath feel like an attack Lately I been thinking maybe leaving make it better Maybe they forget the nights I made 'em feel lesser Maybe they don't see the pain I keep under pressure Maybe they grow straight if I just write the final letter Cock it, drop it, let the rain decide the weather But the Glock feel heavy, and my hand won't let it settle Five years old, still inside me, asking why I met the Curse that won't leave, so I stay, and keep the metal.Cursed Since Five [Verse 1] From five years old, I felt the weight Dark cloud hanging over my fate Mama's pain became my pain too Never had a guide to show me through Streets became my only friend Couldn't see where it would end [Chorus] Rain falls heavy on my soul Dark thoughts trying to take control But I hold on for my seeds My six children are my creed Even when the night is long I gotta stay here, gotta stay strong [Verse 2] Never had a brother by my side Father's love, I was denied Got involved in all the wrong But my babies keep me going on Two girls brilliant, four boys wild I was once a broken child [Verse 3] They don't know I'm holding back the pain Smiling through the pouring rain Would lay down my life today Just to keep them safe and safe away I'm the curse, but they're the cure In their eyes, I see From five years old, I felt the weight Pain in my bones, I sealed my fate Mama and papa couldn't hold it down Left me broken in this troubled town Streets became my only friend Dark thoughts, no way to mend [Chorus] Rain fall on me, wash away the pain Dark clouds gather in my brain But I rise, I rise, I gotta try For my seeds, I cannot die Rain fall on me, set me free There's still light inside of me [Verse 2] No brother there to walk beside Just anger, rage, nowhere to hide Got caught up in the wrong, you see That's what broken homes can breed But look my children in their eyes They're the reason I survive [Verse 3] Four boys, two girls, so brilliant and strong Two wild, two gifted, they don't know they belong My older daughter, misunderstood like me But they're resilient,
