No Longer For Me - Personal Lyrics Journal

[Verse 1] Under the hum Under the lights They say my name like they made it up My chest keeps count of what I don't say [Pre-Chorus] My girls tape their pictures to the walls My son still counts the days They don't know what they're holding up [Chorus] Thank God for the hands that pull me back Thank God for the reasons I can't quit The dark keeps calling, keeps calling me in But this life's not mine to give I'm no longer for me [Verse 2] They describe a version of me I've never met I swallow what my body wants to say I'm running on the fumes of yesterday Tryin’ to build little worlds my kids get to keep [Pre-Chorus] You say love the ones who wound me That's the hardest thing You've asked Cuz my hands keep making fists From everything I can't say back [Chorus] Thank God for the hands that pull me back Thank God for the reasons I can't quit The dark keeps calling, keeps calling me in But this life's not mine to give I'm no longer for me [Bridge] They can keep the title They can keep the story Whatever lets them sleep My name was spoken first By a voice that doesn't leave So let these hands stay open Even when they shake I'll be the ground beneath I'll be what doesn't break You’ve always been that for me… [Final Chorus] Thank God for the hands that hold me still Thank God for the ones who know my name The dark can keep on calling I know who I am And I'm no longer for me [Outro] I'm no longer for me Written to the bone This life was never mine I was always Yours alone