…yeah… i washed my hands a thousand times still felt your fingerprints on mine tried to scrub you from my skin but you were somewhere deeper in i burned the clothes, i changed the sheets still heard you breathing next to me no matter how i tried to run you felt like something i’d become and i thought love was holy thought it set me free the dirtiest thing i ever did was fall in love like this let you inside my veins now i can’t wash it away the dirtiest thing i ever knew was everything you do you left me stained in truth and i’m still covered in you i tried to hate you, tried to break every memory we made but even when i screamed your name it didn’t sound the same you took the clean out of my soul turned something pure into control and now i don’t know what i am just something shaped by your hands and i thought love would save me but it buried me deep the dirtiest thing i ever did was fall in love like this let you inside my veins now i can’t wash it away the dirtiest thing i ever knew was everything you do you left me stained in truth and i’m still covered in you if i could peel you off my bones… if i could be someone i know… would i still feel you in my blood… or did you turn me into us…? the dirtiest thing i ever did was fall in love like this i gave you everything now there’s nothing left to give the dirtiest thing i became was learning how to stay inside a love that hurts and never goes away …yeah… i’m still… dirty…
