Room for Both

When the silence gets loud I still reach for you somehow Still got your number saved inside my phone Sometimes I press it like you're coming home For half a second, everything's the same Then I remember, and it hits again They tell me time is gonna fix the pain But all it taught me was to carry weight I hear your voice when I don't know what to do Like part of me is still talking to you I can fall apart I can get back up I can miss you bad And still believe in love When the silence gets loud And there's nobody around I don't have to let you go Just to find my way out You're not here beside me But you're part of who I am When the silence gets loud I carry you again Carry you again Yeah, I carry you again Got a hundred things I never got to say A thousand little moments I would pay to save I still remember how you laughed at my jokes Even the ones that weren't funny at all Some days I'm angry at the way it went Some days I read our old messages again But I won't let the ending write the whole story You were so much more than what happened that morning I can break down I can be strong I can miss you And still move on When the silence gets loud And there's nobody around I don't have to let you go Just to find my way out You're not here beside me But you're part of who I am When the silence gets loud I carry you again Maybe healing doesn't mean goodbye Maybe I can take you through the rest of my life Every stupid joke, every argument we had Even all the ordinary days we never knew we'd miss If this is what it costs To have loved you like I did I'd still choose every second Even knowing how it ends When the silence gets loud I won't shut it out I don't have to let you go Just to find my way out You're not here beside me But you're written in who I am When the silence gets LOUD I carry you again So I'll live And I'll love And I'll say your name When the silence gets loud You don't feel so far away