She Only Hates Me......

She used to laugh in the kitchen light Said we were fine just getting by We built a fire just to feel alive Never asked if it would survive Now she's finding a peace I don't know And I'm holding on to letting go We don't say half the things we think Just let 'em settle in between I used to meet you where the shadows stayed Running from truth I was scared to face You held me close while we blurred the lines But I felt something pulling me outside Now I'm standing where the truth don't fade And I can't go back to who we made I didn't leave, I just changed inside Still right here… just not that life You're right here but miles away I'm still here, I just had to change Same house… different place She only hates me when she loves Jesus I don't hate you, I just see clear now Every light she finds don't reach us Every truth just pulls me out somehow I was the place she used to run to Now I run from what we used to be We're still holding on to something That don't look the same to me There's quiet now where the noise would live I don't know what to do with it You call it peace, I call it space I don't know where I fit these days I still see you in everything That don't mean it's where I should be Love don't always mean stay the same Sometimes it's walking through the flame I don't know where I stand now I just know I won't back down Love's still here… just different now She only hates me when she loves Jesus I don't hate you, I just woke up Every prayer feels like she's leaving Every step's me giving it up I was her high, now I'm her weakness You were my love, but not my freedom We're still standing in the same room Just fighting for two different reasons If He saves you… what was I? You were love… just not my life Was I healing… or the hurt? Both can live in the same word She only hates me when she loves Jesus I still love you, I just changed Feels like faith put walls between us It's the only way I stayed I was her past, now I don't know it You're still my home, just not my chains We're still holding on forever But forever don't feel the same You're still here… I never left… We just don't love the same way yet…