I hear myself I hear myself I only asked if you wanted a hand with the sink, you didn't turn around, you didn't stop to think. You said, "Just leave it, I'll do it myself," the plate hit the counter, the glass shook on the shelf. I let it sit, then I came back around, soft as I could, kept my voice right down. You said, "Can you drop it? I'm fine. I'm fine," flat as the tap that you left running behind. I'm not here to win and I'm not after a war, I'm just handing you back what you threw on the floor. Do you even hear yourself? Whose is that edge riding hard on each note? Whose is that bite in the words that you quote? Why does it cut when it's coming from you? How is it mine if it sounds brand new? I hear myself coming out of your mouth sharp as a wire I can't pull out I hear myself and I don't know that voice (Do you even hear yourself?) You never raised your voice, you only gave me mine You never raised your voice, you only gave me mine You said, "Why's it always me?" and the drawer slammed shut, "You wouldn't get it," quick and quiet as a cut, you said, "Don't start," when I hadn't said a thing, "You wouldn't get it," you got it, I said it. "Look what you made me say," nobody made me, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, (leave it, drop it, fine, don't start) I won't say "that's not what I meant." I meant it. "Don't start," I started it, I lit it, I fed it, "You wouldn't get it," you got it, I said it. "Look what you made me say," nobody made me, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, (Don't start, don't start) said it twice, made it ring. You said, "Look what you made me say," flat and fast, then you heard it, and you froze, and you let it go past. I won't bite, I won't fight, I won't shout you back down, I won't spin it, won't twist it, won't turn it around, I just read you your words till you hear how they sound. "Leave it." "Drop it." "Fine." "Don't start." On repeat, I'm just laying them down in a row at your feet. Do you even hear yourself? Whose is that edge? Whose is that bite? Why does my voice fit your mouth so right? I hear myself (Just leave it) coming out of your mouth sharp as a wire (I'm fine, I'm fine) I can't pull out I hear myself over all of the noise I hear myself (Don't start) and I don't know that voice (Do you even hear yourself?) "Just leave it," that's me. "I'll do it myself," that's me. "Can you drop it?" That's me. "I'm fine," that's me. "Don't start," I started it, I lit it, I fed it, "You wouldn't get it," you got it, I said it. "Look what you made me say," nobody made me, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, I said it, (leave it, drop it, fine, don't start) I won't say "that's not what I meant." I meant it. I hear myself coming out of your mouth sharp as a wire mine from the inside out I hear myself over all of the noise I hear myself and I know that voice And I know that voice
