And I don't know what I'm doing anymore I was gone so long I was scared to return And I was terrified you'd let me go I lost control I lost control Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? I swear to God It felt like I died I was alive but lost in my mind I thought of you the whole time Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? And I don't know what I'm doing anymore I was gone so long I was scared to return And I was terrified you'd let me go I lost control I lost control I lost control I lost control I swear to God It felt like I died I was alive but lost in my mind I thought of you the whole time Am I dead? I hear my name in the panic But it don’t sound like mine Every step automatic Like I’m out of time If I’m breathing, why’s it hollow? If I’m here, why can’t I feel? I keep chasing something borrowed That was never real And I don't know who I am anymore I was never myself Who the fuck am I? And I can finally admit I lost control I lost control I lost control I lost control I swear to God It felt like I died I was alive but lost in my mind I thought of you the whole time Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? Am I dead? I swear to God It felt like I died I was alive but lost in my mind I thought of you the whole time