Nightmare

Nightmare im dreaming while im awake every bone in my body slowly aches im shaking im so scared drowning in my head it’s a fucking nightmare i’m so afraid i feel paralysed holding all this pain behind my eyes it’s a fight everyday to thrive and survive I feel like I can’t breathe It’s like every breathe is wasted on me I’m always fighting who I want to be It’s like my inner demons are killing me My voices won’t go away They control my mind everyday I can’t speak well not freely Silence is all I want to be im dreaming while im awake every bone in my body slowly aches im shaking im so scared drowning in my head it’s a fucking nightmare i’m so afraid i feel paralysed holding all this pain behind my eyes it’s a fight everyday to thrive and survive sometimes just to be alive im trying to scream and call out for you my brain it’s working but my body it won’t move i’m giving you all that i can but sometimes it doesn’t go to plan I wish I could take away the pain That i feel every second every day I’m looking at you but you don’t see You see this version of who I wanna be I push you all away and you leave Im dreaming while im awake every bone in my body slowly aches im shaking im so scared tormented by my head it’s a fucking nightmare i’m so afraid i feel paralysed holding all this pain behind my eyes im trying everyday to thrive and survive to make the pain go away and to keep on going another day the ache won’t stop i. might lose the plot but i swear i’ll be ok