You said, don't close the door... I thought you were coming home. I knew the weight of your silence, The things you couldn't say, I learned to love you through the distance, And find a reason to stay. You came back speaking softly, Like something had finally changed, I asked you, "Are you ready?" You said yes, and I believed again. But somewhere in the space between The words you gave and what I'd seen, There was a truth I couldn't hide, You wanted me to wait outside. You asked me not to close the door, But you were never standing on the other side. I kept a light on through the storm, While you were choosing somewhere else to hide. And I won't fight for a place in your heart, Won't beg for the love you keep pulling apart. You say you don't want to lose me anymore, But every time you choose her, You're the one who closes the door. You told me about your family, The troubles you had to face, But what did they have to do with her, Or why she still had my place? I asked you for an answer, You disappeared into the night, And there you were beside her, While I was nowhere in your sight. I wasn't asking for forever, Or promises you couldn't keep, Just one small moment of your courage, One reason left to believe. I made excuses for your absence, Turned every wound into forgiveness, But I can't keep calling it love When I'm the only one who shows up. You asked me not to close the door, But you were never standing on the other side. I kept a light on through the storm, While you were choosing somewhere else to hide. And I won't fight for a place in your heart, Won't beg for the love you keep pulling apart. You say you don't want to lose me anymore, But every time you choose her, You're the one who closes the door. And God, I wish I didn't love you, Wish your name was just a name. Wish I could look into your eyes And feel nothing of the pain. But I do... And that's the hardest part of leaving, Not the walking, not goodbye, It's knowing I would still have chosen you, While you couldn't even try. You asked me not to close the door, But you were never standing on the other side. I gave you everything I could, You gave me reasons I should hide. I won't compete with another woman's love, Won't keep pretending your words are enough. If you had wanted me, you'd be here, Not asking me to wait another year. You asked me not to close the door, But I can't stand here anymore. I didn't leave because I stopped loving you. I left because you never came. And all this time... The door was open. You were never there.
