[Intro] [Almost Empty / No Drums] [Low Female Vocal / Close-Mic] [Restrained Emotional Whisper] I don't really have a reason to live. [Pause] Reasons to die? [Quiet Bitterness] I could name plenty. [Verse 1] [Low Spoken-Sung Female Vocal] [Slow Heavy Groove] [Emotion Held Back] Work, and I wear my body down. Rest, and I watch my time disappear. Even when I do nothing, I still get older. Things I never chose are handed back to me and called— my life. [Short Instrumental Gap] [Heavy Guitar Ring-Out] [Verse 2] [Low Female Vocal] [Quiet Frustration] [No Double Kick] I stopped saying I wanted to be happy. That word— happiness— sounds like something made for somebody else. [Forced Polite Voice / Bitter Irony] Please smile. Please try harder. Please look ahead. [Hurt Audible] Every time they say it, my face becomes a little less like mine. [Pre-Chorus] [Building Tension] [Shorter Breaths] [Denser Guitars / Rising Bass] [NO Double Kick] So today again, I chose the side with no reason. Or maybe— I never chose at all. Maybe I was only made to choose. [Micro-Pause] [Immediate Full Impact] [Chorus] [EXPLOSIVE CONTRAST] [Fast Extreme Metal] [Continuous 16th-Note Double Kick FROM FIRST BEAT] [Double Kick Under EVERY Vocal Line] [NO Half-Time / NO Pauses] [Strong Clear Female Vocal] [Suppressed Anger / NO Screaming] I try to run— my past is waiting where I go. I want to die— they ask me why before they'll let me go. It follows me. It questions me. It names me. If this is what you call a life— that's a cheap name for it. [Instrumental Break] [Fast Mechanical Riff] [Continuous Double Bass] [Maintain Established Musical Identity] [Verse 3] [SUDDEN DYNAMIC DROP] [Double Kick Stops] [Low Vulnerable Spoken-Sung Vocal] Who decided what a person is worth? We are given value when somebody wants us. The moment we're no longer needed, even our names begin to lose their meaning. If people are no different, then at least at the very end, I wanted to decide my own worth. [Bridge] [Near Silence] [Extremely Close-Mic Female Vocal] [Emotional Whisper / Audible Breath] [Suppressed Pain] [Voice Slightly Trembling] [NOT Detached] “I'm fine.” [Pause] I know better than anyone that I'm not. [Breath Catches] But— I don't want anything. Still, time keeps spending me. [Growing Bitterness] The things I want to forget are the things my memory saves with perfect care. [Anger Beneath Sadness] Every time I wish for an ending, the world reminds me— it never needed my permission. [Unsteady Breath] And still— I'm left here. [Build-Up] [Keep SAME Riffs and Musical Character] [Distortion Gradually Returns] [Drums Gradually Intensify] [Vocal Rises From Whisper Toward Singing] [NO Genre Change] No answer. No rescue. No revelation. [Voice Growing Stronger] Just another breath. Another second. Another day that doesn't ask. [Double Kick Enters Near End] [Chorus 2] [MAXIMUM INTENSITY] [Fast Extreme Metal] [Continuous 16th-Note Double Kick THROUGH ENTIRE CHORUS] [Double Kick Under EVERY Vocal Line] [Dense Distorted Guitars] [Powerful Emotional Female Vocal] [Controlled Anger / NO Growl] I don't need a reason to live before this life is over. Reasons to die keep growing every day. And still I cannot choose the end. I never asked to keep on living. I never found some piece of hope. No miracle. No answer. No reason. It's only my existence outlasting me, refusing to let go of this body. And for nothing more than that— today is still here. [Instrumental Break] [Continuous Double Bass] [Established Main Riff] [Maximum Intensity] [Do NOT Introduce New Musical Theme] [Sudden Drop] [Outro] [Drums Drop Away] [Low Guitar Resonance] [Close-Mic Emotional Whisper] [Exhausted / Hurt / Bitter] If life has meaning, someone explain it. [Long Breath] If nobody can— that's fine. [Voice Trembling] I'll carry what means nothing without pretending it means more. [Voice Beginning to Break] And for today, I'll call this day my own. [Long Silence] [Low Bitter Voice / Clear] That's a cheap name for it. [Instrumental Build / 20-30 Seconds] [NO NEW RIFF] [Reprise Established Main Riff] [Same Tonality / Same Musical Identity] [Begin Sparse] [Drums Gradually Rebuild] [Distortion Gradually Increases] [NO Double Kick at First] [Double Kick Enters Near End] [Emotional Intensity Rising] [Female Vocal Returns] [Close-Mic Emotional Whisper] [Voice Trembling] No answer... [Breath] No reason... [Voice Rising] No meaning... [Short Silence] [Deep Inhale] [FINAL ERUPTION] [SAME MAIN RIFF / Full Band] [Continuous Double Kick] [Maximum Intensity] [Full-Voice Female Shout] [Raw Pain / Anger / Desperation] [NOT Growled / Clear Diction] THAT'S A CHEAP NAME FOR IT! [IMMEDIATE HARD END] [NO FADE / NO AFTERMATH]
