[Verse 1] Yeah, I dyed my hair, cut your name out my jacket Tore the pictures, left the frame in the attic Told my friends I’m good, I’m over the habit But every laugh I fake, you’re right there in it Shots on the bar with my “I don’t care” lipstick Middle of the crowd, still your ghost keeps glitching Every petty wish tastes sweet and acidic I’m screaming that I’m fine, but I don’t quite fit it [Chorus] So what, I’m a beautiful mess tonight Raising my glass to the wrong, to the right I’m done playing healer, I’m done taking blame If loving you is poison, I’m flushing your name So what, I survived every little pill Every bitter swallow, every sharp thrill Here’s to every scar that you can’t erase I’ll dance on the ashes, I’ll raise my glass in your place [Verse 2] We were medicine, then we turned to a habit You were sugar on the edge of the tablet I kept shrinking just to fit in your pockets Now my heart’s on mute when your number’s on it Walked through fire just to prove I could take it You kept score every time that I’d break it Now my tears hit the floor like they’re glitter and glass I’m spinning in the dark, but I’m over our past [Chorus] So what, I’m a beautiful mess tonight Raising my glass to the wrong, to the right I’m done playing healer, I’m done taking blame If loving you is poison, I’m flushing your name So what, I survived every little pill Every bitter swallow, every sharp thrill Here’s to every scar that you can’t erase I’ll dance on the ashes, I’ll raise my glass in your place [Bridge - Rap] Yeah, I was your punchline, late-night pastime Now I’m front row, center in my own life You were dead weight tied to my waistline Now I cut loose, baby, watch how I sky-dive You said I’m “too much,” I said “that’s true” Too loud, too wild, too real for you Got my girls on my left, bad dreams on mute Heart on my sleeve and my hand on the truth You were small shots, I was big-proof love You were cheap talk, I was rising above Now I toe that line in my heels, I’m lit If you see me in the club, better plead the fifth (hey!) [Verse 3] Now I kiss my scars in the bathroom mirror Tell the broken parts, “Every day you’re clearer” I don’t need your hand just to feel that I’m real I’m the whole damn party and the afterfeel [Chorus] So what, I’m a beautiful mess tonight Raising my glass to the wrong, to the right I’m done playing healer, I’m done taking blame If loving you is poison, I’m flushing your name So what, I survived every little pill Every bitter swallow, every sharp thrill Here’s to every scar that you can’t erase I’ll dance on the ashes, I’ll raise my glass in your place [Outro] So what if I fall, I’ll rise, I’ll rise (oh) Tears on my lips, but there’s light in my eyes One last toast to the love that we killed Then I walk out the door, head high, heart filled
