[Verse 1] With no hand to hold Who will I console? How will I explain what I can't understand? With no words to speak How can I repeat All the little warnings circling in my head? With no point to prove Why would I improve? How will I address what I can't comprehend? With no hope to heal How will I know what's real? Will I recognize it happening again? [Chorus] I find solace in surrender Gratification in shame Indulgence in dishonesty and amusement in pain I seek pleasure in adversity Joy in jealousy Inclusion in exclusivity and peace in impurity I find ecstasy in agony Virtue in vanity Reassurance in rejection and freedom in tragedy I seek respite in urgency Composure in complexity Strength in vulnerability and purpose in uncertainty [Verse 2] With no one to trust Who will hold my hand? How will I let go of what I can't control? With no ground to stand How will I withstand Every little doubt that pulls me underneath? With no soul to lose Who will be my muse? How can I express what I don't understand? With no hope to heal How can I reveal Will I recognize it happening again? [Chorus] I find comfort in surrender Vindication in the blame Indulgence in the honesty that still resembles shame I seek pleasure in adversity Calm in jealousy Belonging in exclusion and relief in impurity I find ecstasy in agony Truth inside vanity Reassurance in rejection and escape inside tragedy I seek stillness in the urgency Order in complexity Strength within vulnerability and faith in uncertainty [Bridge] Maybe I don't want an answer Maybe answers make it real Maybe I've confused acceptance With refusing what I feel Every time I call it comfort I'm just dressing up the pain Every contradiction shelters What I cannot bring myself to name And I know I've been here before I remember how it ends I keep finding new descriptions For the same old thing again So if solace is surrender And my freedom is the fall Maybe all these opposites Were never opposites at all [Final Chorus] I find solace in acceptance Liberation from the shame Indulgence in the honesty I used to hide away I seek pleasure through adversity Grace beyond jealousy Belonging without boundaries and peace with impurity I find ecstasy past agony Worth beyond vanity Reassurance through rejection and hope beyond tragedy I find respite from the urgency Clarity in complexity Strength within vulnerability and purpose in uncertainty
